Friday, September 30, 2005
wa lao... tong si le. i hate it i hate it i hate it. i wish i was a guy. no need to dress up, duN need to care about looks. everything is just about having fun. HMPH. and the best thing they duN have to go thru the monthly PAIN. *grumbles
today is sort of like the last tutorials for all the teachers. carn believe this is gonna be the last lap for my JC life. i mean, its so funny. it juz seems like a few weeks ago when i took my promos. so fast... everything seems to be past even before i can take a good look and register things in my mind as memories. you noe what i mean ya?
not exactly in the best of moods today. maybe becuz of... coughccoughrcoughacoughmcoughpcough. i dunnO...
grrr.... i bite!
talked to someone who's supposed to be online juz now, but the person dao me. argh... watever... duN think that person even cares. *grumbles to myself.
cutting my hair today. maybe after i cut my hair, i wuN feel so PMS-ed anymore.
i'm supposed to think happy thoughts. but... not now. i duN have any at the moment.
btw, someone added me on friendster today. duN really noe her personally, only noe her as the person who was from my pri sch??? lol... nvm...
anw... i'm a stalker. blog stalker... :) yeah... i shd mind what i type. mustn't state any names. if not i get thrown into jail. i'm 18. HOW???
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6:47 PM
Thursday, September 29, 2005
today had lunch at BK at downtown. :) mushroom swiss rawks... a delightful treat after a long and boring morning and afternoon of lessons. sian... tml short day... :) can sleep...
saw terence and shiyun when we were taking bus back to sch. was hoping i wud see yt thou, but no luck... but yeah... there there...
sometimes we do things and offend pple w/o knowing. sigh... nvm... at least i forget about things easily...
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6:10 PM
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
currently in the sch library. having recess. today is a short day, can go home early to sleep. been pigging a lot these few days. anw, had a fun fun time at tuition yesterday night. :) and steffie darling, minex says there's 33 days to her bdae. and i reminded her its your bdae on 7th oct!!! :) i'm so nice yeah!!!
had a quarrel wif my mum yesterday night. like again. these days, we're so at each other's throats. one lil unkind comment and it will juz spark off a quarrel. but somethings are beyond our control. sigh... y carn she put herself in my shoes and stop saying things that carn be changed. urgh... nvm...
final results will be out today, last paper is gp paper 1.
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9:57 AM
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
sigh... dunnO how to describe how i feel now. juz very very disappointed in myself. chem results are going to be out tml i think. and i will fail for sure. i noe what some pple must be thinking, that aiya, she so mug, then always say she will fail. i'm not mug. and i dunnO what's happening to me. i'm deproving so much. you might want to add on that my results are still about the same as the results i have last time. but when everyone's improving and you're not, there's sth wrong isn't it. y am i wasting my breath typing all these when no one actually cares. i dunnO either.
i shd have seen this coming. i have actually. but sometime things that are happening at the same time are making the situation worse. you see? sometimes i wish i can shut myself from this world. run away to somewhere else, where no one else can find me. sometimes i wish i can just sleep and nv wake up.... peace.
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5:48 PM
Monday, September 26, 2005
i'm starting to have the feeling i had two years back after i finished my o levels. its bothering me. i'm having nightmares about it and every morn i juz wake up thinking about all the mistakes that i made and how stupid they are. i noe i seriously screwed up this prelims. i didn't have the heart to study. i was slacking ard most of the time, and i have no one to blame for my lousy results. why is this happening to me again. why. i duN understand it!
i think its over.
but why is there this sour feeling when i shd be happy? sigh...
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7:01 AM
Sunday, September 25, 2005
hMmm... yeap... formatted my com so there's practically nothing in my com now. so sad at first, cuz there were so many memorable fotos that i had inside the com. but i'm so lucky i have most of the pics that i like in photobucket. so they are almost all online. :) yay! learn my lesson!
refer to minex's blog for details about the day at escape. i'm lazy to type details. :) and ... i tried baking cookies today using the sth else rather than an oven. but yeah, the cookies are edible, but the colour not very even... haha~ buying an oven next week! :) haha~ i'm such a pampered bitch yeah!
i miss all the songs that i used to have in my com. one day i'm so gonna go to daddy's house and burn all his songs into a cd and bring it home!. wahahah~
okok.. i guess that's all for now... enjoy the pics :)
i am sunburnt eh! :)
i rang the bell and yelled: ICE CREAM! so out of point right =P
us after the spraying game in the pool. and i realised that i am seriously in need of new slippers.
me and minex :) we were supposed to look sunburnt... but apparently, not very...
baking session at minex's house on fri. haha~
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1:17 PM
Saturday, September 24, 2005
today is memorable. :) birthday celebration for van at escape. met at pasirris at 11, toook bus there. then we started off with the rides. the HAUNTED house SUCKS. i hate it. i almost cried lorx. the stupid pple keep scaring the HELL out of me. =( i swear i'm nv going in there again. then we sat the wet and wild like 6 times altogether. and the indoor roller coaster is so VIOLENT. almost fling us off lar. then i sat the inverter alone cuz they all dowan to take the ride. my head so groggy now. and we sat go kart 4 tmes. all our first times. damn shuang lar. :) go this cute malay guy larx!!! damn sutt lor, the way he drive... yupyup... took fotos, and had loads of fun. and I AM SUNBURNT. i bet you all nv see sunburnt jia wei before. see i'm NOT so dark after all ya!:)
met yinting downstairs juz now. had a talk with her. i miss her a lot a lot a lot. she happened to finish church and yeap, she was like: WHAT YOU DOING HERE!. then i was like : WHAT YOU DOING HERE LAR! I STAY HERE! -____-''' lol, she thought i stayed in pasir ris. like so WATEVER LOR. ok... i should stop typing in caps. =P and then uhm... yup so FUN... talked a lot a lot a lot also... and yeap, we should go out some time after the As. :) lurve you gurl (thou u will NOT see this) kekex...
today is such a memorable day. :)
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6:53 PM
Friday, September 23, 2005
had a super fUn time baking COOKIES. and our cookies are NICER than the guys one. confirm plus chop ok!!!we're sO pro. and i have anti stick hands cuz the dough wun stick on my hands only, they stuck on to spaxY's and minex's hands. wahahaha~SO CUTE HOR. my new hobby: baking cookies! :)
i'm so gonna get dessert cookbooks, anyone wanna sponsor my OVEN?? haha~ better if its like a few tiers, then i can cook more!!!
went for gym session wif minex. hee~ so happy.. i ran for 8 mins. and i realised how NOOB i am to the GYM. i had to ask minex almost every machine how to use. -___-''' fine... but anw, had a fun fun time today :) and so farnie, cuz minex say she use her sis's number for me, so she wrote her sis's name, which is valerie. then cuz hav eto sign mahx, so i didn't now what to sign, and i keep laughing. -=X then the security guard ask: y u keep smiling. *bish
lol... yeap... escape tml. sun is family day. maybe i'll experiment on cookies at my house. :)
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6:39 PM
sometimes we really duN cherish the people around us. and when we realise it, its too late. i was thinking about my dears. van, minex and spaxy. thinking about how we had each other for company since last year and this year. imagining life without them is... i dunnO, somehow, very plain. i nv has so much fun in my life.
at first, it was the lectures, then slowly, going out, having fun playing arcades (children's one), shopping for stuff, talking neos, and thinking about funny stuff like nicknames etc. i really love them a lot a lot a lot. and yeah, you noe what kinda love i'm talking about la.
wanna watch the movie be with me. yt says that its super nice. hee~ maybe i'll have the chance to psycho them to watch wif me today.
oh yeah. going over to minex's house to uhm, play. and BAKE COOKIES. me spaxy and minex. :) MY FIRST TIME. haha~ hope everything turns out well.
yesterday the guys went clubbing, hope they had fuN. :) btw, escape opens at 10am. haha~ yay!! looking forward to tml. *grins*
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8:20 AM
Thursday, September 22, 2005
been mapling the whole morning. =X nth to do. the weather's not good either, it just rained, i duN feel like running alr. wet wet one. hmMm... dunno what to do tml. sigh... shd i or shd i not. sometimes i think it is a difficult decision to make. *tugs hair*
oh ya, show you the little black man that me van minex and spax bought yesterday. and we're so high can?? but its very cute lar...cuz the lil -censored- lights up when there's radiation. wahahah~
and here's my second ear hole. looking forward to the third one after a levels. wahahah~ so farnie lor, minex was like saying: weix, your ear very small lei... haha~ yupyup, i noe, but i love the feeling of having a new earhole. soon my ear will become.... HOLEY. ok... not farnie. very cold...
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1:38 PM
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
i got my second earhole wif van dar :) u noe, i actually think that i'm high when i pierce my earhole. =X i think i'm abnormal!!!!!
went to heeren and cine today. had loads of fun. i think i smiled more today than the past two weeks.
got no plans fer tml and fri. sat going escape. wanted to jio ham out but she's going out wif her frenx...
ok, shall plan intensive exercise... wahhaaha~ haven't been swimming much, maybe i'll go swimming. and i need to run. hhaa
maple:)
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10:44 PM
i was fuming last night cuz of what my mum said i was.
some words just hurt you deep down inside. it might not have mattered if it came from someone else whom i'm not close to, but it really felt like stabs to me when it came from her.
bad influence. yeah.
i'll show you what bad influence is. y are you doing things that are hurting me. y are you saying things that are not true.
life is full of lies. the truth is ugly. maybe its a blessing in disguise.
i'm thinking of moving. or maybe a private blog. this place is no longer for my FRIENDS and i only.
guess the only song that fits how i feel now is this:
Welcome to my lifeDo you ever feel like
breaking down?
Do you ever feel
out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And
no one understands youDo you ever wanna
run away?
Do you
lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screamingNo you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me
To be
hurtTo feel
lost
To be
left out in the dark
To be
kicked
When you're downTo feel like
you've been pushed aroundTo be
on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
But deep inside you're bleedingNo you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lies straight to your face
And
no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
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6:57 AM
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
you can't change what happened in the past
you can't make all relationships last
you can't change who you love
but you can change on how you love them
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6:20 PM
Monday, September 19, 2005
one last
never could imagine life without u
from the moment u walked into my world
never knew how long a loving flame could burn
but losing u has forced me to learn
that we can't change the way we feel inside
and every try at love never turns out right
we both know
it's better if we just let it go
so let's have one last kiss
one last touch
one last tender moment between us
one last dance
to our first song
while pretending there's nothing wrong
let's stay here for a while
and, cherish every moment we're in denial
we both knowit's better if we just let it go
everytime i try to take a stand at all
i see your face again and i fall
in the middle of the night there's a scent of the rose
the smell of your perfume i suppossed
but we can't change the way we feel inside
and every try at love never turns out right
we both know
it's better if we just let it go
so let's have one last kiss
one last touch
one last tender moment between us
one last dance
to our first song
while pretending there's nothing wrong
let's stay here for a while
and, cherish every moment we're in denial
we both knowit's better if we just let it go
baby even maybe we'll meet each other under a different sky
we can always share this one special things we shared
but it would be too much for us to be..so
lets haveback
we both know...it's better if we just let it go...
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3:01 PM
ahha! i have 314 posts =) i win my DADDY. but yeah, most of my posts are like crap.
dunnO how to put this across you u pple in another way but yeah, the basic idea is everyone's not happy. ok, not everyone but almost everyone that i know are not happy. then agian, i was talking to someone online the other day(hope he doesn't mind) , and he asked me, how would you want others to look at you in the future? i didn't noe what to ans. so he added: like, havinng a fat salary, good comfy life, no worries and good career? then i added that on top of that, i wanna be happy. something that he said really made sense, and i juz thought of putting it here.
he said: ok, let's put it in a scenario... i'm happy sitting slacking, i'm not lazy, i just love lazing and doing nothing... but i've my work... no one else except me will know wat it is about. i wan it to be done but i dun like doing it but if it's not done, my boss will be disappointed in me, my family as financial support will be even more sad that i cant succeed, i've failed myself too...so u see the inter-relationships?
me being happy is just selfish, wanting others to be happy and urself not happy is just foolish... true eh?
been quite emo these few days. there have been times when i was on the verge of breaking down and crying.but something just holds back the tears. sometimes i wish i can be there for my friends. to lend them a shoulder to cry on. to lessen that big load that's making them unable to breathe properly. sighs... i carn concentrate and i've even lost the urge to play maple. btw, my bro bought the cash card and now my hair's different, and its green. =)
actually, i agree with what daddy said in his blog. its scary how two people meet, fall in love, and at a later point of time, hate each other to the core. i would rather stay as friends and have a good impression than lose a good friend.
everytime i walk on the streets, i see an old lady and an old man holding hands, walking( wherever to), i thought that was BLISS. it really touches my heart. but how many people can actually survive till the age where love is so strong between the both of them. people in the olden days get married and only get to see their spouse on the day of their marriage. a broken marriage was taboo, and there was no such thing as divorces. now, people get into a relationship and at a later point, marry their so called mr/miss right. however, (looking at the divorce rates) many end up getting a new spouse. my point is: true love is hard to come by, and it doesn't apply to everyone.
i think i digress. =X but anw, cheeries to everyone. cuz i love all my friends. :) yes, every single one of you out there.
204 should have an outing yeah??????????? chop chop come up with plans :)
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7:07 AM
Sunday, September 18, 2005
happy lunar birthday( if there's such a thing) to dearie steffie and muh dearie ham! (: yeap, those two lucky gurls were born on the ba yue shi wi 18 yrs back. :)
MOONCAKES, LANTERNS!!
haha` i'm a lil mad...
i haven't been mugging. =X i've been SLACKING. =(
anw, one of my friend's kinda irritated cuz the ex keep bugging my fren. chill kie. juz ignore if you have to. =X (waaa... i feel super mean, but some things you juz have to be very persistent about it)
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8:54 AM
Saturday, September 17, 2005
i'm really blessed to have so many good friends who are there for me when i'm down. i noe they care a lot for me, and i juz wanna let them noe that i care as much for them too. it pains me to see them go through a rough patch. and if only i can be the one who is there to give them both the physical and emotional support they need....
sometimes we juz need to share some of the inner thoughts with them. i'm glad i found one whom i can share wholeheartedly without having to be scared that she will tell anyone etc. i love you gurl, a lot a lot a lot. *muakx*
i miss those whom i haven't seen in a long time. miss my tuition matey. miss yt, ham, bekah, kingslin, ade simin the marauders etc.
and yeah, i thouught it through. between friends and bf, who i would choose. i choose friends. cuz they are the ones who are there for me no matter what. tested and proven
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10:51 AM
Friday, September 16, 2005
ok, i shall talk about sth besides the exams. :)
van's birthday celebration---> still not very decided when and what we're gonna do, juz noe that we might be going K box. and yes!!! i'm(van too!!!) getting my second earhole this coming WED!!! whee!!! i'm SO DAMN HAPPY AND EXCITED CAN!!! need to save up money this for next week. there's so much to spend on. i need new slippers too, think i'm gonna get a new pair. thinking of either ripcurl or... quiksilver or adidas. spot the similarity??? all my fav brands. -___-''' ok that's super lame. oh yeah, minex says we shd go escape. :) its been a long time since we've been there. >.< yay!! did i mention i love the inverter... can sit there non stop a few times... x.X haha~
there's so many things that i wanna do with the four days. i wanna go sailing, i wanna go run, wanna celebrate van's bdae, wanna chiong maple, wanna relax and go out wif my cousin again, i wanna go iceskating, i wanna watch movies. i wanna go swimming, wanna go shopping. haha~ i'm a lil mad yeah????
i'm so sick and tired of studying... =X
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1:12 PM
Thursday, September 15, 2005
waaaaa... i have 5 boxes of mooncake at home. =X and that's after my family finished like 8 small sized ones from my sis's FRIEND. can open mooncake shop already. and the thing is...... i duN eat mooncakes. and everyone's juz like giving in boxes of 2 with 4 inside. -____-''' anyone wanna help eat???
juz slept for... uhm... 10 solid hours. yeap. so so tired, but i'm better now. :)
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7:51 AM
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
to someone dear to me:
at some point in our lives, we do things that we regret, somethings that really embarrass us and we just feel so bad about it later, knowing that nothing you say or do to try and make the situation better. i noe how you feel. i really do. you feel so down right stupid for doing that thing you did, and u wish you can turn back time. i assure you, time will heal all wounds. it happened for me, it will happen to u as well. pple tend to forget these insignificant things. cuz they themselves duN wanna remember about it i guess. time will heal all wounds, it just takes a lot a lot a lot of time. :) cheer up ok!!! i'll be there for you. *muakies*
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7:11 PM
of all the times it has to be down for maintainence NOW. wtf. i'm so pissed. my only chance to maple today is GONE. *grumbles a lot a lot*
nvm, i shall go sleep.
mental blocks suck. piece of advise to pple hu haven't taken any math paper. have a good night's sleep b4 math paper next time. it helps. at the very least you won't be careless and you won't have mental block.
my head is feeling so ballooned. i dunno, besides the pea brain of mine, it feels like there's water inside. >.<
urgh. i'm incoherent
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12:49 PM
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
how i wish our A level certs were graded according to hogwart's examination grades. i guess i'll juz get troll for chem( potions).
3 papers down excluding GP. 2 more to go for the week. :) how great.
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2:23 PM
Monday, September 12, 2005
Jia Wei, sometimes you feel like you are in a video game being played by a teenager who has no regrets about having you get eaten by a monster! Today you should try a new game: avoiding stress! Whether this concerns your career or your personal life, you need to find some neutral territory where you can actually relax. How about going over to a friend's house?i wish.........only 2 words for todayscrewedcarelessnesslike y am i so PRO in carelessness. maybe i shd juz start up a class to teach pple how to be careless. like what the fuck is wrong wif me. i carn even do inequalities properly. fuck it man, juz fuck it. been thinking a lot these few days. and i really mean those kinda soul searching and stuff. i kinda decided my whole life is so messed up, i dunnO what i want and i'm blurred by facts that are just sitting there and staring back at me. i dunnO how to approach the problem, that's y i've been beating ard the bush, which is not getting me anywhere. =( sometimes i wish time will turn back. i miss the fuN j1 times. life was just full of laughter peace and joy. its the best time of my life. argh... nvm, minex say we'll be finishing 500 marks worth of exam qns this week. waaa... so pro horx... you won't get to see the tears i cry.
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6:55 PM
Sunday, September 11, 2005
i carn imagine what i did last night. first of all, my cousin , my sis and i went shopping at like 9.30 pm at bugis. then... haha~ i had an adventure wif my cousin. :) only one word to say: daredevils
went to my cousin's house at 6++ almost 7, then went to her bedroom and talked. and we juz spent quality time together. been a long time since all this kinda things happened. as in, yeah, been a long time since we had a heart to heart talk. our lives are very different. (duH) but yeah, maybe that's y we got so many things to talk about. and yay!!! she encourages my 2nd piercing!!! (points to friendster testimonial) wootx, and yeah, i realised i'm sometimes to guai alr. and now i feel like getting more than a 2nd piercing.
then we had dinner and watched tV. then we started off for our mid night shopping. :) walked here and there, and we also saw our other cousin :) (he more pro cuz he totally ponned the whole family gathering and went to bugis) win alr lorx!!!!! but our midnight shopping was like ony decided when we had our talk in her bedroom. HA!
anw...... i shd start mugging yeah. less than 24 hrs to first paper for prelims and i'm sitting here. BLEHX. update some other time.
oh yeah i forgot to add in my previous post!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAT VAN DAR!!! *muakx*
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8:32 AM
Saturday, September 10, 2005
watched the super-unscary "horror" movie last night till ard 2 am. muz be wanting to scold me for wasting my time right? i agree totally, could have finished my revision if i spent those 2 hrs wisely. but anw, the real story can only be found like last 3 mins of the movie. most of the time, i see dark shadows on the screen and nth else, with the exceptions of a few screams here and there. ok... but it was NOT scary. bother.
going over to my cousin's house tonight. :) its been a long time since i've been there, let me think... ( i can't remeber actually) but i think it shd be like ard march. =X or maybe june hols... watever, the point is haven't been there in the past month or so. haha~
really miss the times when we used to stay over at each other's house during the jun and dec hols, going overseas together, goign out together, swimming etc. memories*
supposed to be mugging but whatever la. and stefanie! you horrible gurl!!! 4am agian... -____-'''
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10:13 AM
Friday, September 09, 2005
i guess some things are better left unsaid and unheard. somtimes its better that way. agree wif steffie about her recent post. and i detest those who tag anonymously and have nth nice to say. cowards. you got the guts to post nasty comments, but you got no guts to admit it. that's cowardly.
i think its the exam stress. its making everyone super easily irritated... im sorry if i got on your nerve. argh... watever. not like you care right.
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6:34 PM
Thursday, September 08, 2005
oh ya... steffie!!! you're supposed to start sleeping at decent times. not 2am in the morning (thou that's 3 hrs earlier than your norm... )!!! :) take care ok? sleep early!!! *muakx*
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7:03 PM
Matchbox Twenty - Unwell
All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold on Feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown
And I don't know why
[Chorus]
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwellI know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be...me
I'm talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know they've all been talking about me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think
there must be something wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow I've lost my mind
[Chorus]
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
I've been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away
[Chorus]
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Yeah, how I used to be
How I used to be
Well, I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be
I'm just a little unwell
wow, math marathon ended. not gonna see tuition matey for 2 weeks! =X miss ya dearie! wow... a few more days to prelims and i'm still super unprepared.
sigh, how come i feel, so distanced from some pple i noe??
i miss yt!!! =( wanna see her bekah and hammie dearies soon.
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7:42 AM
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
some songs are so special to you that u''ll nv forget. shall not name it here as some pple will whack me. but i still love that song thou i heard it for juz a mere i guess 10 times, every friday last yr. the crazy things that we do, the fuN we had the dance that was so... :) i miss it a lot. but i'm still glad i'm where i am now for the great friends i noe.
_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _
i'm not crazy i'm juz a lil unwell.
math marathon. math ttuition for 3 days in a row. is that PRO or not... :) but i enjoy times spent wif tuition matey :) red bean potong ice scream XD
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4:16 PM
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
it has been a bloody week. urgh. that's y i hate being a gurl.
my head feels so heavy now x.X lack of sleep... ZzZzZz, haven't been sleeping well lately... think i'll turn in early tonight. :)
math rocks my socks.
duN you feel the exam jitters??? i hate it. bloody week. carn wait for prelims to end. but then its not as good as it seems. end of prelims= start of mugging for A levels.
bother! i'm so tired of all these...
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4:16 PM
Monday, September 05, 2005
supposed to be studying right now. but you noe what happened...
GP prelims was horrible. the double combo i received today is excruciating. i juz hope to pass and not go out of point. watever...
the hall was freezing as usual. minex and i wore our super smelly jackets that we left in the locker after mids. cuz we went out for spaxy's celebration mah, didn't wanna bring so many things out, so there there. and in the end we left it there for a term, and it smells of cereal and milk and ya, basically it smelled horrendous, but who cares. =P thanks to breakfast club. then again. what happened to breakfast club.
random thoughts:
many pple breaking up. its quite sad, esp since they've been together for so long.
oh ya, my cousin's back again, its sort of a miracle i can use the com. haha~ but sometimes having him ard is like so super funny lor, the things he does ar... sometimes really wanna strangle him. XD
but anw, my mum pissed me off again cuz of sth yesterday. she can be such a PAIN IN THE ASS. and oh ya, this morn she told me she dreamt of my aunt hu passed away half a yr ago. sigh... dunnO lar, everytime i think of her, i juz feel like breaking down and cry. so yeah, i was rather affected today.
reina corazón rey
te amo
oh ya... happy bdae ginni :)
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2:59 PM
Saturday, September 03, 2005
i'm not mad anymore. :)
anw, went over to jas's place to study yesterday. we... did study ok!!!! not bad lars... hee~
some random thoughts:
someone( sry, haven't asked if i can tell the name) told me about relationships. cuz i was juz asking for fun. the person said: its different how you maintain a long term relationship, and how you maintain the relationship in the first few months. there's always so much to do, so much to say... etc but i guess after a few months, things become drier, there's not so much to talk about anymore, and... i dunnO... i guess its like marriage. no wonder there're higher divorce rates. =S life is so fast paced. before you noe it, you have to move on. a single blunder and have a snow ball effect, or ( cascade amplification).
kkies... ah hah... show you my best friend cum daddy cum PW matey!!! :)
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9:47 AM
Friday, September 02, 2005
SHE'S SUCH A FARKING NAGGY HAG.
what the fuck is wrong with playing games? what the fuck is wrong wif relaxing a lil. what the fuck is wrong resting? u mean you can study 24/7? FUCK OFF.
keep on threatening about cancelling the FARKING internet connection. KNNBCCB. i'm super PISSED. i'm so gonna HECK ABOUT EVERYTHING. duN expect me to lay another finger to help you. FUCK IT ALL. MY LIFE SUCKS CUZ YOU'RE IN IT.
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8:42 AM