Monday, February 28, 2005
math test totally sucked to the core. i was not awake while doing the bloddy thing. haiz. and i think i made lots of careless mistakes. =( haish
today we were all coolies. =( the teachers made us carry chairs and benches. some of us helped while some actually went to buy food and go eat in class. nothing against them but yeah, juz feel that everyone wishes they dun need to help. but if no one actually helps, nothing will get done. some pple juz duN understand this ba. nvm... juz niaming fer nothing. then PE was carry those wooden bolcks again. watever la. so much fer being STUDENTS. coolies get to drink water. we duN even have the priviledge to drink water la. not even a thankew. wow. thats what's HUMAN rights are ya? nvm...
today mr yeow was angry again. but he said at the end of th lesson: " i carn get angry wif your class fer too long. cuz y? i like your class" so sweet lo. =) hope he really means what he says. but i think the most basic thing is to keep up wif the work that he wants s to do bahx... =) for our own sake actually. =)
sis got back her results. hmmm... hope she can stay in TJ. =) my nephew got like 9 distinctions and 1 A2. like what the... and that A2 was supposed to be A1 one lo... his EL very pro lo... then still lidat. haish... RI jiu shi RI lo... anyway... to all those hu get not very good results fer Os and u see those hu get very good fer Os juz cuz of luck, duN be jealous kies! cuz ultimately, they are the ones hu suffer. so what if they get the best teachers? theey carn keep up, and that the impt part. haha~ Dun give up kies. brace up and do your best. you'll not fail the second time. =)
haha... hmmm... dunNo wat to say le... tml got tuition then got CCA. goign to be so dead tml. =S
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6:17 PM
Sunday, February 27, 2005
hahax... hmmm... ok... today i'm in a lighter mood compared to the last week bahx... sometimes we juz have to let things go. i'm in search of my smile i had a long time ago. and i'm posotive i can find it back
tml's math test on the ever so disgusting topics of complex number and functions. i HATe functions. haha~ i'm in no mood to study cuz... first, the bloody sch had to have hols juz cuz of the stupid opening ceremony. i'm mixed up wif dates. i keep wanting to go to sch... lolx. not a good sign, but it messed up my biological clock. URGH. so i'm NOT in the mood fer studies, which also explains y i'm blogging now. wahahahah~
juz now was online to play a while b4 my bro uses the com. wahhahah~then i toked to my cousin. yupX... glad he's toking to me at least, cuz if he's not, i very scared of him. but all in all, he's a very nice guy. =) hee~ one day we shd all(cousins) go out. =) then we can play till mad.
wahahahah~ my bro juz pissed me off abt sth, and i forgot what i wanted to blog abt. -__-''' nvm... as usuall.. hahah~ oh yeah, to all those getting their o level results, i noe how shitty u probably feel now. but good luck. =) you can do it de. p/s: my sis is out now, fer the last time b4 she gets her results... wahahha~ scared later she will be too sad to even go out. hahaha~ nvm... good luck. =)
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3:20 PM
Saturday, February 26, 2005
i juz realise that i have a lot of things to do cuz i've been slacking fer the past few days. argh... that's not a good sigh. and the notes fer nervous control add up to at least 2 pieces of white paper. argh.
tonight calling yt to tok to her. haha~ miss talking to her lorx... =)
to minEx... hmmm... duN so pek cek la... u like got a lot of relationship probs... duN so troubled la... haha... no wonder a lot of pple tell me its difficult for you not to get attached even for a while. wahahah~ got so much taO hua yun. nvm la... wanna have her also muz pass my tests lo... not so easy kies... unless you can prove to be better than all of her dearie husbands...
haha... okies... i better go mug le... wahahha~ guN bound rocks...
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4:29 PM
haish. old age is getting on me. yes... i can vividly see pple sniggering about being 18 and all that. haha~ nvm... i forgot to complain about yesterday. hurx...
the below contains explicit content. rated
m18was gunbounding yesterday. yep, after a very long time not touching my acc, i decided tp revive. and duN think i'm pro. i'm a NOOB! yes. i juz upgraded from a chick to a wodden hammer. and there was this gurl who was playing wif me. she asked me to have cyber sex wif her. wth la. i was so freaking disgusted. and in case at this point in time you may think its ok, its a LES can. i'm not againts les. but les having sex totally urgh...
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8:10 AM
Friday, February 25, 2005
ok... lets do some bitching tonight.
let me bring you back to a few days ago, say monday.
okies, lets start here. try thinking about the things i've said a few weeks ago, about that particular someone who's against us. we all noe hu it is ya? n guess what? after irritating us with his nonsence, he managed to find his new target. which is unfortunately his pals. and it went on n on, till they carn stand him either, so now he's gone to find his next round of targets. i'm so sorry fer them. yes. very sorry, but i think its useless tellling them as it wud seem as if i'm backstabbing him. haha! watever.
y carn he understand. he's acting like that guy hu's mo xiao ling's husband( in holland v), the one who keeps telling pple what they shd do and voicing his opinions in public. (which i personally think
not everyone is interested in noeing/ evern cares about what he's thinking) somethings shd be left undone and unsaid.
okies. and the next thing i wanna bitch about is the sitting arrangement fer bio. my beloved mr yeow made me sit wif my dad, joel and chungchi. how GREAT. i'm stuck in the middle of chungchi and denzil and joel keeps taunting me about whining. wth. i duN even have the right to whine. n he keeps telling denzil he wants to sit wif me. wth. if i'm sitting wif chung chi and him i'll juz go jump. and poor spaxy and minex and van are stuck wif that him. and he keeps kupping minex's things, like he owns them. he always try to act as if we're on very good terms, which is rather fake, if he didn't notice. pretence.
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7:34 PM
beEn a slacking day yesterday. slacked too much, have to start pia-ing today. how i wish i had sch. at least i have more hw, and that can keep my mind off things... and it seems more fufilling than staying home and rot w/o any nice tv shows.
today have to go back fer guides. sianded cuz yt not going cuz she has spa skill A fer bio. yikes. i hate it.
i wanna go out but haish, i duN feel like walking... =( that's so stupid ritex? haha~ nvm...
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7:19 AM
Thursday, February 24, 2005
i think i think too much. i think i said too much.
i need to learn to keep my mouth shut. i need to learn to keep my thoughts to myself. i need to learn a lot of things more.
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11:00 AM
haish... today i'm staying at home. wanted to go out. i think i will go alone. everyone comes to this world alone. so i guess there's nothing wrong wif going out alone. being loners are nothing i guess. its when some pple give you the stares that you think its weird i guess. well well. when u carn find anyone, i guess you juz have to make do wif it yourself.
sometimes i just duN understand what's happening. i duN seem to noe who the pple i call friends are. and i thot i knew them rather well. ya. on my own wishful thinking, i thought. i thought we understood what each of us wanted. i thot... nvm... duN wish to dwell on this.
i think its all cuz of the bloody week. urgh. i hate cramps. i miss ham n yt and bekah. so sad we have to push the meeting till next sat. =( they seem to be the only pple hu can stand me, and stand by me when i'm down.
haish. i duNno what to say, but i personally feel that AH pple are more sympathetic i guess. what goes around comes around comes around. how you treat pple will be the way pple treat you back. duN expect me to be there fer you if you are not there for me. i still remember my fren said:" you duN need to say anything or do anything fer me when i'm down. just stand by me and hold my hand. then i'll noe you're there fer me no matter what. " that's y fer my frenz who are sad, i may not be speaking, but i'll juz hold her hand and let her noe i'll be there fer her. at least i try. cuz i noe if we are the type of good frenz whom we deem to be, we do not need to spell it out.
hmm... thanks to those who were there fer me in someway or another. you carn expect someone who's griefing
not to be sensitive. i wish i wuN think too much. but sometimes the things that you say juz hurt more than scolding me a bitch.
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8:40 AM
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
everyone seems to be speaking french to me. i duN understand what they are telling me, they dun seem to understnad me either. well. watever, but i have so many things in mind that i'm so tired to even try explain what's happenning to me. alomost everyday i'm irritating pple and they are irritating me. what more can i say?
so what if i'm anti social. so what if i have an attitide. the world is a place where we have to give and take. if you carn stand me juz leave me alone. fine.
so much for the saying: that's what friends are for.
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11:41 AM
Monday, February 21, 2005
been doing the same things fer days. guess you all noe it la. duN need to spell it out. the thing that pains me the most is not being able to help at least one bit. all i noe is to do that thing. i lost the most beautiful thing in this world. that is to feel happy and smile. guess i'll get over it soon. everytime i see my cousins, the overwhelming feeling jusst sweeps me off. and i start all over again. i realise that its stupid not to bring a box of tissue there. there's no way i'm not goign to do it. the moment i saw her pic i juz did it. yeah. i have no courage to even look at her fer the last time. i really duN. not that i wanna be disrespectful, but i carn bring myself to it. i wan to rememebr fer the way she was. not the way she's sleeping now. the way she smiles. the way she talks to me. th way she ....
now i stilll end up doing the same thing as i type. i'm useless. i better stop b4 i wet my whole keyboard.
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7:34 AM
Saturday, February 19, 2005
she left.
i cried the moment i saw yt. thanks fer comforting me and listening to me.
the smile you all saw today was so difficult to put on.
the tears u will nv see. cuz i try so hard to keep them to myself.
i fear for my cousins. i really do.
how can they move on w/o a mother?
tears just come so easily. the feelings are so difficult to fight back.
u ever lost someone close?
sigh.
pardon me if i lose control of my emotions and breakdown n cry. i dun wanna attract attention. but its sometimes so difficult to fight them back. they juz come so naturally.
i must not cry anymore. that's so crybaby!
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7:28 PM
sigh. there are so many emotions goign on in me. i noe this may seem a little crazee... but i really feel that this just isn't my year.
first of all, my relatives are not getting the good health they shd get. its those pple hu are not irritating me that are leaving me. the irritating pple are all around me. it makes me get pissed at them if they ever noe it. sometimes i juz dowan to say only. i'm really sick of putting up wif them. they are so INSENSITIVE. maybe i'm the one hu's super sensitive. but things start to get irritating if you keep doing it and saying it. understand? its not juz one bloody time la. its like everytime i see that hag i have to hear it like 3 times at least. freaking hell. carn you jux shutup!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! one more time and i will have thots of sealing your big mouth with a mean sentence. such a big BIaTCH. and to some pple hu are so f***ingly complaining that i have bad attitude or wateverso, the only reason y pple have mood swings is cuz of hormonal changes. duN you f***ingly think that you duN use the same excuse lo. cuz you do. sometimes what pple nv say doesn't mean you duN have it lo. at least pple say sorry when they realise that they have been mean. at least they noe.and its not easy to say sorrry lo. you think its juz opening your freakign mouth? its only those who think they have hurt other pple lo. and this shows that at least they have a tinge of good ness in them. no ones perfect. so stop picking on me. some pple have trouble controling their emotions. it'll be good if each of us can forgive and forget instead of pin pointing who's using that condition as an excuse. watever...
[sorry if this is so crude. but i'm fuming now. pls allow me to blog down my emotions now, cuz if not... i'll so burst soon... if you dunN like it, DUN read. fish off then...]
and my cousin. my paternal side. juz received news that my aunt's in the hosp. there's water in her lungs. and she's in the ICU. i'm so sad. really. when i heard it i felt like going to see her. i feel so bad fer goign to my maternal side' s family gathering. i feel rotten. and when i reached home last night, i heard from my another cousin that with her present condition at that time, it was difficult fer her to survive till the next day. i was so devastated. my cousins are still rather young, what will happen to them w/o a mother. and they are super nice pple. i have to most fun times wif them. moreover, their mum, which is the aunt who's in hosp was to one hu intro my mum to my dad. or sth like that la, if not fer her, there wun be me. so i felt so worried. i guess that's human nature. at that moment, i prayed to all gods to keep her alive. i wun want her to leave. she's too kind. not her. someone else, just not her. sigh... then this morn when i woke up, heard news that her condition has been a little more stabalised. =) that's a bright spot. was so afraid to listen to the fone. at least last night, no fone calls are better than one wif bad news. sigh. dearly wish that her condition will be better. really. i pray to all gods to continue keeping her alive and eventually get well. that's all i ask fer. that's really all. thank you. i dowan anyone to leave me anymore.
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8:31 AM
Friday, February 18, 2005
went back to AH today. went to watch a bball match at the indoor statium in AH. wow... i juz love the stadium lo. its so freaking nice. i love bball too. not because of egg, but i have always liked the sport. i love to watch pple sweaton the bball court. the look on their face, the moves that they make. the 3 points that they score each time the attempt the hoop. its a sacred sport. i like watching it but hate playing it myself. cuz i'm NOT a good plyer. some pple think that i'm in bball la. -__-''' so diaoz... haha~ nvm...
hmmm... i dunNo wat to say. hated PE today. its was so tiring. =X
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6:04 PM
Thursday, February 17, 2005
What's happening in your personal relationships, Jia Wei? It seems as though you are looking for a fight.
thats exactly what i'm feeling today. watever.
i feel like shit. blehx
anyway... happy bdae to bekah darling!!!!!!!!!!! 18 le worX... =)
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5:34 PM
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
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5:33 PM
ok... this is a test of how strong your GP is kies. =)
try paraphrasing: the furry dog ate the cat.
mr lee asked us to not paraphrase it in the very crude way, and he meant:
the hairy son of a bitch ate the pussy!
hairy cuz its a synonym fer furry. son of a bitch cuz, a female dog's a bitch, and the dog has gotta be a son of a bitch,
and everyone noes y its called pussy cat ya?
so crude. -__-''' watever.
haha~ watever.. we were so laffing our heads off today. =X and i forgot to bring my guides cookies today. so saded. wanted to give it as a prezie you noe? fer vday. cuz monday i gotta go take the flowers fer my dars then no hand. n today i absent-mindedly forgot to bring. anyway, chem was a total diaster. den someone was telling another someone the test fer one qn is "idoform test", and the other person thot it was "i don't know". so -__-''' so darn farnie la..
hmMm... forgot to thank the pple hu gave me things yesterday. =)
oh ya... today after sch, we had KFC. oopx... no wonder my horoscope says i need lots of exercise. =( cuz i keep binge-ing... haish... almost every week got test neh!!!!!!!!!! =( i'm so stressed. hmmm... i'm so hopeless... next week we going to eat ge lare^ yayness... =)
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4:22 PM
Monday, February 14, 2005
hey. happy vday to all. =)
here is a song to all:
i dream^
In my mindI can climb
All the mountains that surround me
My spirit’s there, where eagles dare to fly
In my heart
There’s a spark
That can light the world around me
An open door, where I am sure dreams are
It doesn’t matter if I win
Or the colour of my skin
Cause the race is all about
Believing in yourself
And I dream
I can run
Like the wind
And be strong
When my heart just wants to give in
I dreamI can be
The hero that’s in me
When I dream, I dream
If there’s a time
In your life
When the odds are so against you
There’s no defeat,
if all you keep is pride
First or last
Slow or fast
There’s a dignity that makes you
Keep driving on,
when world’s have come apart
It doesn’t matter rich or poor
Or the things you’ve done before
Cause the race is all about
Believing in yourself
And I dreamI can run
Like the windAnd be strong
When my heart just wants to give in
I dreamI can be
The hero that’s in me
When I dream, I dream
I dreamOf a moment
That forever will be golden
When the torch is passed
Only dreams will last
That are shared by everyone
And I dreamI can run
Like the wind
And be strong
When my heart just wants to give in
I dreamI can be
The hero that’s in me
When I dream, I dream
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pardon me fer the mistakes that i've made.
pardon me fer my senseless ramblings.
pardon me fer thinking about things that i shdn't
pardon me fer blaming you
i don't anymore..
happy vday once again.
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last year i met my angel on 14 feb. last yr i received a rose on 14 feb. last yr was such an incredible year. i met all the nicest pple in my life. i made lots of friendship. i feel so blessed on 14 feb last yr.
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6:14 PM
Sunday, February 13, 2005
my PMS is better now. much better after toking to minex. =) hmmm... i still carn concentrate on studying fer chem test. i haven't finish much of my carboxylic acid tutorial cuz i carn deduce the structural formulas of the qn. n i have yet to even open a page of my bio spa notes. i forgot everything that mr yeow taught us about bio spa skill c n d.
sigh. tonight i'm going over to my cousin's house fer steamboat. that means the whole night is wasted on eating and slacking. i'll seem too nerd if i brought my notes. i'll nv touch them and will end up tokign to my cousin or even worse, go arcade play, so why bother. ooh... my horoscope says that this week i muz exercise a lot. yay~ i love exercising! i'm mad...
seems to me that everyone's going thru a hard time this yr. i duN noe y. thou i'm not exactly very happy either, i wanna say cheer up! cuz i'm determined to make myself happy. =) i wanna be. i've had enough of the days when i am sad n depressed and hey. no one likes it. so smilex kies? =)
someone said that vday is over publicised and over emphasized. how true. everyone's toking about vday. seems to me like its even more important than cny or xmas. esp out to those hu duN have a date, carn go fer a date: you're NOT aliens. singlehood rocks. =) vday is not about couples. its about friendship. show some appreciation to those hu have beem there fer you when you are down. they are the ones hu will be there fer you no matter what happenes to you and your dar. cherish them, n give them more attention if you've not been doin so. =)
to all my dearie friends: i love you. and will always love you. *muakX n huGz*
XOXO
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11:16 AM
Saturday, February 12, 2005
some symtoms which u shd look out fer when i am pms-ing or rather these are the indicating factors:
jump at everyone's throat
make a stupid fuss out of nothing
scream at something seemingly unimportant
unable to control her emotions
had a super black face
blows hot n cold
tempremental
unable to focus
and the best way to not get murdered by her is:
l e a v e m e a l o n e
great advise comes from the person itself.
incoherence is also part of my pms-ing. if you duN understand, don try to. it wasn't meant to be understood anyway.
however what you really need to noe is : l e a v e m e a l o n e
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10:00 PM
i dreamt of him. so long since i've even thought about him. =X dunNo la. haish. nvm.
who i dearly wish to tell him: i'm no longer the person who u noe, even fer those hu noe me yesterday.i've been a pig. =X yesterday i slept from 4 to 6+ and rotted my way till 11 when i slept again till 8 this morn. that to me is so pig!!!nvm. have lots to do today, have to mug fer test, complete hw and studY fer the BELOVED spa. i have a sad life. haha~
i need to buy a lot of things. which means a lot of savings to be done. =( i'm so poor.
hmm.. i guess i better get going.
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9:21 AM
Friday, February 11, 2005
You live life through social interactions which occupies a significant place in your life. You value stability, specifically through a happy family life and security, namely through material possessions and a sense of general well-being. You are warm, realistic and jovial, possessing excellent social skills which make you a perfect host. You take pleasure in celebrating traditions and merry-making. You are bighearted with your wealth as well as your feelings. As such, you dislike tensions and disagreements, and seek to maintain harmony among friends and classmates. In group projects and assignments, you are personable and work as a co-operative team-mate to perform well in allocated assignments. As you are very practical, you do not like work dealing with conceptual or abstract ideas. You are hardworking, meticulous and make decisions based on personal values. You enjoy a mixture of experiences, work well with routines, are loyal and like to be appreciated for your contributions. haha~ went to sch today. was very tired la. haish...wanted to make spaxY pon chinese bt didn't succeed. then ha PE today. EGG SAT BESIDE ME!!!! wahahah~ i was like so darn happy la!!!!!! wahahah~ i'm a bit mad now... haha~ over exxagerating. anyway, ya... he so cute lo... then later we ran 2 rounds b4 goign to the bball court fer standing broad jump exercise. =) jump jump n jump. over cones and barriers. haha~ very cute la. then he made me demo!!!! =S so paiseh...and he noes my name already. wahxxxxx... *blushes* after that we did puch ups and crunches and leg raisers. =) i wanna be FIT... going to do them when i have time.... wahahahha...i wan flat tummy! yesterday had an enjoyable night. =) my cousins came over. its been a long time since we met up n played. haha~ not as in play la. but like you noe, catch up wif each other n those kinda stuff. haha~ talked n laffed a lot. missed the times we used to rah rah during new yr. then one of my cousins was like, look at this guy, he's 23, quite shuai lei. wan not? i intro him to you all. -__-''' ya... think my mum will murder her if she heard it. wahhahah~ then we sang songs in bedroom while the older generation sang in the living room. n i was maria yesterday. the heaps of bowls nv seem to stop coming in. -__-''' i feel so laboured... =( but nvm la. new yr ma. the yonger generation also had a table to ourselves. then we joke here n there at that table. while the older generation were like so quiet at the other table. haha~ very fUn! my 2nd cousin was like : ni men yao fan ma? haha~ make those who wanna eat rice sond like they are beggars. wahahha~ n we all laffed like mad over it la. haha!~ come to think of it, i like my cousins from my father's side more. they are like so much less dao than the other side one la. =X then we also added each other on friendster. ahha~ my cousin very pro lo. commando then also noe howto edit pics lei. very nice lo his pics... =) hmmm... at least the new yr hols ended wif sth nice. =) kkiex... take care to all hu are sick. the docs are so freaking rich on chu san lo!
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2:47 PM
Thursday, February 10, 2005
hmmm... i dowan to go sch tml. =S seems to me that everyone's not going... but nvm... me spaxY n van are going to be guai gia... =)
talked to ZH yesterday. to be exact, its crapped. wahahah~ long time nv crap wif him already.haha... n he complains that he's not mentioned in my blog so here he is. wahahah~
haha... now toking to owen. =) very long time nv see him or talk to him already. haha... someday we shd have a 2E outing. wahahah~
hmmm... duNno how minex is. think she's still sick... take care gal... and you tagboard is still down... i carn tag even thou i want to... i dun noe y.
this morn did some visiting. now waiting fer my cousin to come over, haha~ watched a rather cute anime on channel 8. sometimes i really hate new yr shows. either very boring or super nice. and usually u carn finish a whole show b4 you move to visit another house. * pissed*
v-daay is like so near. hahah~yay... i bought the presents le. haha~ yayness... *grinZ*
hmmm... i'm dating chem on vday. i'll be spending my whole afternoon and night with chem. and in the morn, i'll be dating bio spa. mymy... am i double dating? oh no... nvm... they are my dearest subjects. vday w/o them is SO boring. *notices the sarcasm *
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2:03 PM
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
well well... after a whole day of visiting, i finally came home. ate maggi fer dinner. pathetic. saw many of those see-once-a-year pple. haha~ my mum's side got like a lot of siblings la. haha~ a bit tiring. sit there n wwatch TV. whoa. then pple keep asking me what i intend to be when finish As. have no idea what to say. my uncles suggestions include: teacher--- get scholarship n go straight to NIE second option: go china n set up an international sch. -__-''' ya... i feel so -__-''' i am honoured that they feel so confident in me. wahahah~ watever...
mummy allows me to go overseas to shop after As. wahahah~ wooTz^
today euU msgEd me.
wahahah~ so darn happy... =)
oh no... jas is having fever.. poor thing... muz take care ok? to those who are falling sick, pls take care... *curses the new yr goOdies...
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8:04 PM
i had a great chat wif my dearest marauders yesterday. it was superb. its been a long time since we toked together. brought back fond memories... *hugX* at least i noe some people haven't changed. *sigh of relief* i love you all... and ac... i loVe all the others as much as i love you! wahahhah~ no favouritism shown kies... and somehow, wormtail became a snail and prongs became a sheep in msn.
haha..... then daddy sent me songs. hee~ thanks a lot... =)
i was a pig again last night. hmmm... yes, i slept thru countdown. yayness... i did that last yr too.. i'm tired beyond words.
having a sore throat. jas is sick. =S oh well... take care...
hmmmmm..... forgot what i wanted to blog about. but yesterday night was probably the happiest time in this whole year, which has barely started. haha~
take care everyone and happy chinese new yr! =)
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8:14 AM
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
i realised what it is to grow up into a
woman. to grow up means to doll yourself up. yes. every single one of my close frenz are dolling up. i duNno what fer? maybe cuz they have steads. maybe cuz they wan steads. hey no offense to those who are dolling up ok? but i juz carn get used to it. i've seen my frenz, from someone hu duN really care about appearance change to someone who wears revealing clothes and put make-up etc. what a great change. i'm really surprised. i duNno la. i guess i'm still the same person. i think pple
have changed. i realised that even thou sometimes we try to keep up wif each other, we still are
not as close as b4. thou we keep telling each other we care fer each other as frenz, do we really do? deep down inside? it is
no doubt that we drifted apart. and now there's someone else there
fer you. and its
no longer me. maybe i'm juz being paranoid.
i wish to go somewhere else. escape. that's all i can offer. sigh. forget it.
ok... about today, went back ah after the celebration. then went to CS pei bekah shop a while. then had to go home le. after i reached home, had lunch n started cleaning like its no one's business. been busy till now, i get to rest a bit. no one's online thou. sigh.
nvm. have a happy chinese new yr pple! may your yr be far better than mine now. =)
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3:35 PM
Monday, February 07, 2005
hmmm... juz made some nice healthy cashew nuts. =) that made my mood go =) i love making things. i'm bringing some fer my dears to try. haha~ hope duNno enuf fer the class not. but i think some of them wuN like it la. haha~ if the class like then fri i bring more ba. =) or i go but some more and make fer you all. =)
wonder what to bring tml. shd i juz bring a sling bag? but i duN have one cuz my sis kupped my old one. i like that bag. it rocks lo. but think getting it back from her is probably nono... anyway... tis rather bad la...
today we throw javelin. haha~ you shd see how spaxY throws her javelin at the manakin that's supposed to represent someone. wahah~ then she even go poke it lo. kudos to gerald fer knocking that manakin down. haha~ we all got a god laff la. but no hard feelings la. juz fer fuN n laffs.
going to party in the sch LT tml. wahahah~ that's the only good point about tml. haha~
recently everyone like PMS-ing. hha~ carn help but agree that PMS rocks.
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9:46 PM
i'm having serious PMS today. i think it will continue tml and ... watever.
i am in no mood to do anything except get pissed at every little small thing that's happening in my life today.
pardon me. but its my hormones that are no cooperating. not me.
tata. take care. i duNno wat to do tml. no one wants to go out. or rather we shopped the whole of singapore and we dunnO where to shop anymore. watever.
shud i meet kor? haiz. nvm. i dowan to.
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5:53 PM
Sunday, February 06, 2005
i juz woke up! lolx... afternoon nap. haha~ carboxylic is difficult.
i cut my hair again! whoohoo... i can style now. i need help thou. woooh... i rawk...
i need new songs. haha~ i'm so tired. no one's updating their blogs... sian...
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2:25 PM
Saturday, February 05, 2005
today started early. very early. n i juz reached home.
haha~ went fer the YA thing. hmmm... jamie didn't go. so i didn't really see the point of staying lo. oopx. not supposed to be lidat but watever la. they didn't really need us also. watever la. i'm NOT going to play some stupid lame game lo. ruru n minex turned up a little later than us. and the 4 of us had "CCA" after that. haha... i feel so bad fer making YT do the thing. so sorry... =S
then after that went to walk walk. =p bishan got a lot of nice thhings lo! hee~ after that went to minex's house to change then met spaxY n van. =) roller blading is FUN. we were like so super pro lo. we keep screaming fer pple to get out of our way. pro rite? =) exccept fer minex la. haha~ then we were laffed by some idiot guys lo. watever la, mind your own business! n i only fell once! haha~ then after tat we walked to take bus. our legs so super tired after standing on rollers fer 1 hr lo, so we rested at some block the void deck there. took 197 to bugis. haha~ then we rotted our time there, help minex find fer bdae prezie fer a particular animal, then take neoprint. shall upload tml. now too tired le.. haha! then we went bugis the opposite there to eat. haha~ =) very nice.
saw wang quan but nv call him. lazy. hee~ nvm la...
tired le... wanna go sleep le. tml is like super mugging day. van say the carboxylic acid tutorial quite challenging. OH NO! hurx. still got bio can? *stress*
how come i still hope you will msg me? haiz i miz try to forget you. but i carn. y? its llike how i feel about **.
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9:23 PM
hmmm... going to the YA thing le. aahhaha~ wonder what time i will reach home today. wanted to read minex n van's blogs first. =) haiz., i wanna save fer a MP3 player. bbut thiss few months like ahem, got a lot of things to buy n spend. i'm so broke. i think i'm so pro at budgetting. i rawk man. =S haha~
truthfully i've not been happy these few days. behind the smiling face is not the jia wei you see. i try to smile n i succedded in bluffing everyone. =( i miss you too... =S
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7:56 AM
Friday, February 04, 2005
ooohhh... i'm finally back from a long day of work. ok not a lot of work but yeah, a tiring long day. let me start wif yesterday.
annie asked me to pei her go the funeral. so i went lo. how wud i noe that she need to go fer the rituals so i had to like sit there most of the time alone. 3 hrs plus lo... mind you... LOLX. n she bought me necklace n bracelet. very chio. actually is her mum buy one la. haha~ but chio si le. thanks a lot. best cousin's foreva!
then cuz i reached home like at 1130 close to 12, then i slept. woke up super tired. was eating wif my eyes close. wahahah~then had a super tirong day at sch, comprising of gP math bio n PE. ran two rounds today as a class n we were like brisk walking. then we did situps and back raisers and pumping. then we slept on the ground fer the last one min. haha~ Egg wanted us to learn YOGA. haha~ lolx... then after that, went back to AH. met yt to go together. talked a lot. =) went rnd sch to paste chinese new year couplets. heard a lot of things about the sch n its pple. haiz. then one thing pissed me off totally. PT(if you wanna noe hu, ask me personally) was like scolding we all fer not going back last week. Fish off can? urgh. its not like we go back you got things fer us to do right? WTH lo. everytime we go back we like dunnO wat to do and you all dUn have things fer us to do one lo. urgh.
wanna thank the following pple hu sent me their greetings fer my bdae.
annie, the NYP guy, annchi (thou i had to remind her!), chian siewand michelle. i carn believe michelle msged me lo. i was like totally shocked. cuz nv knew she wud jiu dui le. haiz. feel so bad abt not wishing her on the 31 jan. thot she probably forgot about me le.
love you guys loads. =)
toked to annchi today. whaha~ but she's in a mess... full of flour n starch. so i didn;t hug her. wahaha~ she owes me 4 yrs worth of bdae present. wahahha~ lolx... that's so super long la. wahhaha~ watever.
then basically we juz rotted in sch and all that lo. ya... till like about 6+ then i went home. so tired lo. dunnO y. i feel lazY. haha` tml going fer the YA thing, then meeting spaxY n van at bedok (at 330?) to rollerblade. =) whee~ then we are going to BUGIS yet again. haha~ choosing spaXy's clothes fer her. =)
haha~ i'm so freaking tired. all my dars are like NOT online. whoa. then i'm going to mug only on sunday ba. wahahha~ slack night fer tonight. wahaha~
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8:05 PM
Thursday, February 03, 2005
happy birthday to me. =)
thanks to all those who wished me happy birthday! =) most lovable pple ever! you've all been listed in my bestest buddies list. =) wahahah~
but i still wanna thank those who were so super sweet.
0004 ham
0006 yt
0015 peiying
0300 kor! he tried calling =X
0640 stef
0650 van
0710 minEx, nX, shUyaN spaxY
0711 mushRooM!
0937 zH
1115 bekah
1314 xuEli darling~ she whispered in mY ear!
1315 class~ sophie n wF n mY n denzil hu wished me personally again.=)
1531 tK
i love you all loads. thanks fer all the well wishes. they were more precious than anything. =) if i left anyone out, pardon me kies. =)
my mum almost forgot that it was my bdae until suddenly it struck her. haha~ nvm. at least she remembered. my bro forgot. watever. nvm... guys usually very wat one. haha!
today's chem spa was ok la.muz be the bdae luck. =)
met yt today. =) for less than a while. yes. but nvm, tml gotta go AH ma. =) lolx...
thanks fer the puNkish black earrings dars! n the SHOE LACES. they bought me two pairs. and they bought the pink that i had already bought. lolx. watever lao po men.... and they gave me friendship band. =) yayness... so happy...
not fogetting bekah n ham n yT fer the mambo bag which is already in use. wahahah~
kies... every ending marks a new begining. today is the end of life being 17 and the start of my life being 18. it doesn't feel different. haha~ watever... =)
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5:04 PM
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
the dears of my life in MJC. wahhah~ yes! i love every sngle one of them. introducing
van aka corny aka white choc aka white pomfret
minex aka dao ni aka strawberry choc aka ang3 goh2 li1
spaxY aka meh ni aka dark choc aka (still in consideration the the fish we shd call her... )
me~ aka horny aka dark milk choc aka black pomfret
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5:17 PM
hmmm.. currently in the sch library slacking away. hmmm... today is last day being 17. in less than 10 hours, i'll be 18. hurx. sorry fer whining. but i duN like being 18. hurx.
steffie brought the cookies! hee~ thanks a lot gal. =) i shall help you advertise next yr, then you can get your profit. wahahahah~ i'm so crappy.
everyone's asking me what they should get me. seriously i dunnO. yeah. hhaha~ send your greetings ba. think that's the best lo. =) at least i noe you remembered. its the thot that counts u noe? =)
ooh... minex is so PMS-ing. so am i. she like my buddy when it comes to PMS-ing. we seem to be pMs-ing together every month. whahaah~ yayness...
i'm bored. i juz got my freaking sch badge. freaking cuz the lion looks like a dolphin. yesh.
yesterday night i wen to de funeral, saw a quite shuai cousin. wahahah~ watever la.
i feel so bad fer ponning the chem remedial yesterday. cuz sung zai ended up waiting fer us while no one arrived. oopx. ermx... feel very bad lei. imagine he was having a short day one, then later he stayedd back so as to give remedials. he could have gone home earlier lo. n pei his child. ermx... so sorry...
i dowan to turn 18... (in the tune of van singing i dowan to write compo)
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2:07 PM
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
today is horny day! wahahah~ cuz we're all so horny today. imagine me drawing a smiley ace and minex draws in the horns. whaha~ tml shall be dao ni day. and mr yeow managed to make us more horny by bringing chocs. i dunNO la. but sometimes i think that he very poor thing. he tries to teach us then we dunnO the ans. then after that we all like give him black face, so he has to apologise and "pacify" us. dunnO la. hmmm... watever.
yupx.... i wun be having anything on on the first day of new yr. my jiu mu juz passed away so we carn like go celebrating new yr. haiz. but actually its a good thing fer her la, save her from all the pain she was goign thru. her organs were all gining way and she was beyond cure. imagine having liver failure and you carn have dialysis cuz it wud lead to other complications. hmmm... i wanna die a peaceful death, die in my sleep best. wahaha~ lolx... y am i toking about this now. hmmm...
today fer class interaction, we were tokign about careers again. so stupid. argh. i hate the career guidance thingy... not fuN lo... wonder what's fer PCCG. oh no... i'm getting back my compo tml. first person sia. i got this feeling that i will have to rewrite. haiz. watever.
tml is going to be yet another boring day. CCA. n i bet we have to stay back again. n i'll be mugging fer my chem spa tml. argh. first thing in the morn on thurs. sianded.
am supposed to go do chem hw n probably catch some sleep, hope i can. n there's tuition tonight. wonder what time i'll stay till tonight, cuz after tuition maybe have to go there and offer prayers.
we're going out on sat after the YA thing i hope!!! haha~ spaXy!!!! remember kies?
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3:30 PM