Thursday, March 31, 2005
boo!!! boo! my boo! haha~ guess only the pple around me noe wat it really stands for. pathetic. the sch is pathetic. they put up all the freaking block test grades. =( let everyone see how badly i've done. freak.
anyway, our class darn pro. top math and bio. jeremy also top 10 for chem. wootx. bio is chin poh top, van second, then math is weeling top! she is so pro she got like 92/100!!!!! that's like a star star ******** so many stars... i blur liao.
today got a lot of talks. bio, chem n a bit in math. so tired lorx... tired of hearing the same thing over and over again. they keep on scolding n scolding... =S
today very funny. zh ar.. he gimme the bagde that time ar, like giving drugs... the way he pass to me like we got some funny dealings lidat. keke~ so farnie. my frenx were all laffing at me lorx.. then say like drug trafficking lidat. he ar.. haha... dunNo wat to say larx.. always lame lame lidat one... but he nv fails to cheer me up when i'm down larx... =) good fren.... =)
played cards today. wootx. won one time. =) then dunNo larx.. hope the happy days remain.
head still pain leix.. yesterday already lidat, then popped paracetamol le, morn still ok, then now pain again. like go back to the times when i pri sch that time, always eat paracetamol to relieve the headache... blehx. muz jian chi dao di. dowan to rely on paracetamol... but yesterday nite is really pain till carn sleep lorx... =( nvm...
i hate stress!!!!
oh ya. i think my teacher is angry wif me. wootx. cuz i carn go for the ubin hike tml. yay! i duN care le lorx. hu wud be so stupid to go another time. waste time and money. i need to go search for my clothes lorx... thats freaking more impt than anything else, in my point of view. blame me on my stubborness lorx. too bad. you got on the wrong side of me. who wud be so stupid to go there another time n get the cold stares and the freaking attitudes again? i'm not stupid even thou my results tell a different story. its juz too bad. wahahahha~
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4:39 PM
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
i'm so so darn tired. tired about everything in life.
block test results were horrendous. duN ask. i'm so ashamed of myself.
its all my fault. if only i had more time spent on studying. if only i took it seriously. if only i had more common sense than to get distracted by other things. its really all my fault. i shd not blame it on other things except myself cuz if other pple can do it, y carn i? beginning to think iif i'm really cut out for the JC life. with my short attention span, my ever-changing attitude, i'll nv get my As on the a level cert. i mean, comeon, i carn get into a good faculty in NUS wif juz 3 As. its bull shit. almost every good course there needs 4 As. and i already lose out to others juz because i take 3 sub. sigh.
guess this is a wake up call fer me. i need to buck up. stop thinking about other things and start getting down to work. gonna be grounded soon. =( muz work hard. i dowan to repeat lorx... =( no offense to those who repeat, i juz dowan to repeat. yarx. gonna need all the help i can get. rather desperate now. =S i'm not going to lose to myself. i'm gonna prove to everyone i can do it. heard a story about someone today, which spurs me to work hard. i can do it if everyone else can!!!
guess the results really reflects how much hard work is put in lorx. i muz not start to deceive myself all over again. sayings have their comeabouts. no wonder pple say you will reap what u sow.
btw, happy bdae
prongs. =)
to all those who think i'm pissed today, sorry. i really am not pissed wif anyone of you. i got not enuf sleep. really. =S i really look that angry when i duN smile mehx? then lidat i have to smile all day i very tired also lorx. nvm, maybe thats another point i shd learn.
everyone of us has their ups and downs
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4:04 PM
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
its a miracle how a hug can cure all the unhapiness in you
its a miracle how love can change a person from bad to good
its a miracle how music makes one go high
its a miracle how a simple msg can make me so happy for a day.
really. it juz made my day.
that's all i ask for, that's all i need. at least i now i'm somewhere out there...
hopefully i have some place in your heart.
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7:37 AM
Monday, March 28, 2005
forgot to blog about somethings today. keke~ today during bio lec, mr yeow asked sth about mitosis and meiosis. then mr yeow asked: what is the phase in which DNA is replicated in cell division. then he asked chung chi to answer. and chungchi answered: s phase. then mr yeow couldn't hear, so chung chi had to repeat. s phase. then mr yeow was like: what did you call me? wahahahaah~ so farnie... s phase of interphase become ass face!!!! wakekekek~ so farnie lorx...
then another thing is about this guy also from AH. he last time same tuition as me one. he today suddenly smile at me, so i smile back lorx.. then he said bye bye.wahahhaha~ so farnie lorx... hmmm... he retain nehx... so sad ritex... lalalaa...hope everyday can be a happy day... =)
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8:07 PM
today ish the first day of sch after the long weekend. boy i really enjoyed too much on the weekends and forget all about the block test results. blehX. this is really bad. theres a balance to everything. i think i played too much. today went sch then we tok n tok n tok. abotu everything lorx. turns out that everyone is like watching zong yi zui ai xian! haha~ everyone is so amused wif ru hua!!!! keke~
teachers were in a corny mood. at least mr yeow dodn't have his PMS during bio prac. =) things were ok till we got back our chem results fer MCQ. pathetic. as in my marks lorx. barely scraped thru. ( haha... expected lorx... my chem has always been so lousy. )which kind soul can help me? haish. pls i need help dearly!!!
gp after that was all ritey,mr conrad asked us to write our dreams, then i wrote that i wanna
visit barcelona and get married there. so sweet like in liu xing hua yuan lidat! haha~ muz be in that church too!!! =) then he came over and saw then he ask: you wanna get married in barcelona wif ronaldo silloso(watever his name is spelt can!) blehx. having the same name as lee jia wei is not my fault can?!!! PE was height and weight. egg very farnie lorx. at first is 90% then i stare at him, then he say okok la... 100% =) hee~ i'm 100%!!!! perfect score... then after that we ran 2 rounds and we had to do standing broad jump. =( i hate standing broad jump. =S then egg had to ask my gang to go get the mats. so heavy and freakign dirty lorx. make my PE tee shirt stink and dirty. sobx... nvm.. i shall not complain.
today sat wif weeling during the bio prac. then she told me that she read my blog. keke~ then we started toking about GB. lolx... =) hello weeling!( if you're reading this.) you can tag on the tag board u noe? =) welcome welcome. keke~ but not everyone got this priviledge one kies. only my dearie friends =) if is some
hate msg from
unknown pple ar... fish off kies...
the bad news fer today is that we are sort of getting back our block test this week. eeKx!!! dowan! haish.. very demoralising lors. all the teachers give us
the look. not our fault lorx. its so much to do within such a short week. and not like we duN have cca lorrx. i go back to AH almost every other day of the week lorx. =( spand all my time only to get cold stares and attitudes. wth. nvm... shall not brood over it anymore.
whoa, this is a long entry ya. and i shall make it longer. zH very wat can. come to me and tell me my sis looks like me. -__-''' lolx... its not called biological sisters for nothing can! and theresa in my sis's OG lorx. keke~ so farnie. truthfully speaking, MJ de pple muxh better than those in top 5 lorx. at least they not so jia3. =)
hmmm... okie larx... duN wanna make you all reading this sleep. thou i noe only a few pple are reading. watever.its not meant to be so public anyway. keke~
to all my frenx: i like you the way you are. =) love you! saying this reminds me that i have to learn how to sing ai ni! so i can sing to xueli! keke~ *muakx*
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5:21 PM
Sunday, March 27, 2005
help! i dearly need the help of my dearest fashion consultants! i need clothes for the wedding dinner! panic! i walked the whole of orchard and i still carn find a thing. =X
hmmm... hope minex is feeling better. hMmm... today went town wif my cousin lorx... keke~ but sian lorx... someone had to spoil my mood. blehx. dunNo larx... =(
nv do hw... =( blehx... bad bad bad...
the song tong hua is in my head. blehx... thanks to *ahem la. haha... nvm... =)
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7:33 PM
kekek~ yesterday night i was a happy girl. =) toked to a lot of pple worx... =) *ahem, my kor, zH, xueli!!!!darling!!!, !!!minEx dar!!!, mengyang. kekek~ so happy worx... so long nv tok to them, wif the exception of minex la... =) how i wish i can tok to some pple everyday... xueli damn cute lorx... cuz my nick is: n i dowan to fall to pieces, i juz wanna sit and stare at you. then she come tell me: nah! im here for you to stare. so sweet ritex? hee~ muakx.... XXOO
den horx.. *ahem, he very good worx, pple bad mood still tok to me more than usual, then he ask me to click 3 links to watch tong hua lorx. haish, minex, now noe y u say very touching worx. hmmm... dunNo la, then i think he not happy maybe cuz somthing, then still watch this kinda sad MV, haish... muz be relationship prob. so sad horx...hmmm.. then need to meet him to get a vcd from him lorx. haish...somethings are better left unmentioned.
and i dUn wanna fall to pieces, i juz wanna sit and stare at you.
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7:54 AM
Saturday, March 26, 2005
i slacked the whole day away. cool yah? i duNno how to do probability tutorial. =( and i chiong gB today again!!!! yayness!!! i'm double stone now!!!! keke~ so cool rites... so now is 9 hrs and i earned 20k. proness!!!! wahahahah~ GB rocks... =p
hmmm... yesterday someone told me about sth. keke~ sometimes its nice to noe that some pple hold a torch for you worx... duN so worried about the little details lorx... everything will be ok when every piece of the puzzle comes together. keke~ i'm happy for you if you find someone you like and someone who likes you back. pple wan also duN have worx... =) xing fu zhang wo zai ni shou zhong worx... duN think too much, chuan dao qiao tou zi ran zhi.
keke~ wo ai ni bu shi ai gae bie ren kan he bi qu guan bie ren ze me xiang...
haha~ i'm crapping... no, i'm not in love... as in wif some person from the opposite sex, i juz wanna love my family, my friends and all those who were part and parcel of my life. =) cherish you all a lot a lot a lot. what's mine will be mine. no use wasting time pining for the one who's nv meant to be lorx... =)
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8:43 PM
Friday, March 25, 2005
laughter is the best medicine. it really is. its nice to hear pple laff. =)
sianded today totally... Gb the whole day. in 6 hrs altogether, i earned 15k. proness right? =) thanks to the parrot ham darling gave me... thakew a lot a lot a lot...
this suN is family day. =) goign to dedicate the whole day to muh family. keke~
hmmm... i keep hearing pple play mahjong when i was trying to sleep. -__-''' ya... then i keep hearing pple say PONG!! haha~ aftermath of mahjong session... keke~
van say she saw egg wif his wife today. keke~ so cute horx... btw... i'm over egg lerx... hee~ cuz he got lao po le... dUn fit the criteria to be my eye candy... =P
tml muz pia hw lerx... if not no time... hee~ think tml can settle down after relaxing fer so long... keke~
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8:47 PM
The energy of the day can have you eager and ready for most anything, Jia Wei. Given your often radical approach to anything you choose to tackle, you may need to keep yourself in check. A humanitarian approach to life is also part of being an Aquarius, and if the pursuit of the things you want leads to hurting others, it would create serious internal conflict. With this high energy in the air, think through your plans before taking action to ensure that you remain steadfast and true to your values.
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1:35 PM
Thursday, March 24, 2005
back! from the ever so vitalising which saps my energy after 5 hrs plus of on stop mahjong session wif my dearest dars! keke~ it we juz sat there from 1 + to 6 plus doing nothing but playing mahjong. now i noe y pple can ply till they duN sleep for a whole night juz to ply mahjong. haha~
i'm so fishing tired now. blehx... got no plans for the next few days. anyone wanna jio me out?
chem was horrendously horrendous. i didn't finish the blardy paper. and speaking of blardy, its the blardy week. huummm.. maybe not such a good idea to go out. since i will be sianing my way outside. goign to chiong GB soon. keke! byex... shall updat tml.
y am i falling for you all over again? maybe the feeling has nv left in the first place. its juz that both of still refuse to give each other a chance. i duN need a lot from you. juz an sms or a call. that's enuf. y wuN u understand?
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7:48 PM
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
i'm so fishing pissed wif myself.
i screwed up bio. argh. my MCQ, shaded all the rubbish ans that pple say are : so obviously wrong. wth
now math, screwed it up again. and math is supposedly my best sub, judgin from my grades during promos. WTH. i'm reallyy so pissed wif myself.
i'm so pissed wif myself. argh. pissified.
grades: FFF
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12:52 PM
i'm so fishing pissed wif myself.
i screwed up bio. argh. my MCQ, shaded all the rubbish ans that pple say are : so obviously wrong. wth
now math, screwed it up again. and math is supposedly my best sub, judgin from my grades during promos. WTH. i'm reallyy so pissed wif myself.
i'm so pissed wif myself. argh. pissified.
grades: FFF
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12:52 PM
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
haish... i study until i dunno wat i wanna study lerx... nothing goes in. ya. that's the point. you get tired after sometime. haish. so u have to keep going thru the same things over and over again till they start diffusing thru. wonder how much atp i've used and how much brain cells i've killed. tml's math paper. this is goign to be the most unprepared math paper i'm goign to attempt. i've not touched chem in days, i think since say last friday? i'm SO dead. IVLE sucks. there's nothing there which can help me. argh...
no one's online now. which is a bad sign. everyone's mugging. argh. i better get going. blehx.. there's tuition tonight. cya tonight steffie! can we do revision? thankew. =)
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10:19 AM
Monday, March 21, 2005
hmmMm.. went for consultation today. =) mr yeow nv scream at us. keke~ hengx ar... maybe cuz we are gals and not very nice if he scream at us in the corridor bahx... =) he's so sweet he gave us a sweet. mr yeow rocks man... =) then minex and i went to eat mac fer brunch. =) hot cakes rock... i'm so full even thou i shared wif minex... =)
juz now see sZ... so paiseh... he waited for miiee lorx... for 1 hr plus... i really pro horx... make teacher wait for me... kaox... but not really my fault. told him i wil msg him le ma... so i nv msg then is duN have lorx.. but he really very nice to have waited for me lorx... if not he can go home n peix his cute son...
these few days been gunbounding. okok... i noe pple wanna say i childish lorx... but hor... pple still double hammer can? so slow haven't up the rank. sian si le lahx... my bro bought a casket for miee!!! keke~ 30 k can? if i use then now i only got a few k left lorx... thankew so much! thou he wun see it... =) haha~ i' love gunbound. this sat going to chiong GB... or maybe friday. keke~ so if you wanna come find me... juz go GB to find me kies.. haha~
kk.. that's about it lorx... =)
supposed to be mugging now. haix. y muz we have block test? haish...
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1:45 PM
Sunday, March 20, 2005
haha... minex wrote in caps to ask me to update. but i spent the whole blardy day doing integration and i'm still at substitution, not even application of integration. so nothing much to tok about unless you wan me to write out the solutions... haha~vectors still suck as usual and complex numbers are still as complex. found comfort doing some differentiation and functions. but things are not looking too good. i'm so gonna fail all my subjects. haish. -__-'''
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4:16 PM
Saturday, March 19, 2005
Don't be surprised if you find yourself a little weepy today, Jia Wei. The influence from the day's planetary influences can enhance your sensitivity to most everything including your own feelings. Take heart though, it's bound to be short-lived. Let yourself cry if you need to as it can be extremely cleansing. Try not to wallow too much, as chances are things will look far better by tomorrow. Just take good care of yourself today.
kaox... that's wat i'm supposed to do today...
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2:36 PM
hmmm... 3 days b4 the bio paper.
plans:
currently in the ultimate mugger mood.
shall be locked in the room to abstain from the sinful com and tV. if needed, shall go to the library to mug.
siandified.
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8:40 AM
Friday, March 18, 2005
haish. sometimes things as easier said than done. still remember when i offered advise to cs about something, i juz said it w/o effort. so much for caring for my frenz. now i noe how difficult it is for pple to really duN go n think so much about what pple say about you.
my sis is rather siandified wif me perhaps. after she hear about those rumours. haish. maybe. but i'm thankful for her to not get pissed wif me. dunNo la.
guiding life is going to
stop. and i mean it. really had enuf of all the nonsense and shitty stuff that has been happening to me. i'm nv going back to AH if i can help after this yr. dunNo larx... i feel very siandified. but i wanna thank those hu made an effort to stand by me when i'm down. and offer their helping hand. this is the second time i've sinked and i'm glad its still those pple hu werre there to help. *muakx*
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1:59 PM
Thursday, March 17, 2005
i'm getting on everyone's nerves. i'm beginning to think whether something is wrong wif me. or issit juz that everyone is going thru a rough time? haish. when will i be able to smile again? laughter seems to be such a rare thing these days. tension running high. pple getting sensitive. why carn everyone be more appreciative of what pple do for them? y carn everyone juz be a little more tolerant and maybe things will change for te better? y does everyone like to think they are the greatest juz because they are older than you?
try making the world a better place by tolerating.
my mummy went to the temple and help us pray... then she went to suan ming for us. then the god said that this yr i muz not quarrel wif other pple. haish. tension running high. when will my temper ever get better? but last yr already very mild le... this yr dunnO y suddenly revert back to its old ways... =( haish...
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2:04 PM
rumours are flying everywhere. thanks to a guy from NCC. can you imagine a guy spreading rumours? haha... rumours. the most leathel weapon to beat your opponents. make up lots of untruths based on one single phrase. wow. rumours does wonders. but the thing is, how much of it is true. rumours are taken in by many pple. cuz they find it a necessity in life, but i'm not going to succumb to them. spread as much as you want. its not like my name has nv been blasklisted. you can go ask some teachers who have taught me lorx... i'm not scared of the things that i did and i have the courage to admit them. they wanna say what then say lorx. i noe i'm correct ok lerx...
but i'm a tough gurl who doesn't care about all this anymore. i feel hurt that pple actually wanna spread all this kinda rumours, but there's ultimately nothing i can do. if they believe it, i noe who are my real frenz... i shall let pple judge fer themselves. appreciate those who believe in me.
well well. i like YAs. y carn dey have open unit. i'll join for sure. y muz be unit helper. went back to the wrong guides unit to help. really. wud have been better appreciated in another placebahx. that time my angel from BTC2 ask me to go her sch. but i turned her down. hais... did the wrong thing. dowan to claim about what i have done for guides. i'm sick and tired of all this things. one more month n i'm OUT of it. i'm happy then. so many things better left unsaid. not like if i say it, they will understand. dowan to care so much lerx. say also like nv say lidat. nvm lorx... i do my part. my best ok lerx...
haven't been happy these few days. haish. y everytime i g back AH jiu lidat? maybe i really shd be out aof AH and leave the place alone. blehx. yarx... i in VJ n MJ also nv lidat sad b4. last yr seldom go back, then happy. this yr keep going back then i very bu ki xin. =(
there's always two sides of the story. but pple chose to only listen to one side and base their judgement on that. nothing to say lors...
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7:45 AM
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
today mrs lim toked to me, cuz she saw my nick. wahah~ then we toked... yeah, about quite a lot of things. so glad she toked to me. at least she understands what i'm talking about. at least she listens... and she gives a reply and she tells me how she feels. that's all it is about a relationship, to me that is communicating. if each of us juz refuses to tell each other their thoughts, its meaningless, cuz that's not what we feel deep inside.
seriously... frankness is a virtue. i rather hear what's not nice to hear in the first place than being duped like an idiot for the rest of the time. serious. the truth is not necessarily nice, but it is the most precious thing one can ever sought for. haha
kk.. my com wanna kana hijacked again lerx... last few hours b4 that...
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8:03 PM
Monday, March 14, 2005
yet aNother fishy day
fish it all.
fish the teachers. one doesn't understand the meaning of " you have to be there cuz there is a need for a guide teacher to be present." n telling her that was
RUDE. oh my.
fish off la. i can be more
fishing rude.
the other teacher from the other blardy CCA is another
fishing pain. he scold w/o finding the truth., n when i try to tell him its not their(the jnrs) fault, i'm
OVER REACTING.
fish the whole
fishing thing today.
i'm sunburnt becuz of that.
fish lorx. and my leg is
fishing pain. from all the
fishing walking. i walk fer like say 5
fishing hrs today la.
i have a
fishing attitide. duN like it juz
FARK off. i duN need to change because of what you say. i'm
fishing pleased wif it.
FRANKNESS is a
VIRTUE. you get to hear nothing but the
fishing truth.
these few days jia wei is
fishingly stinking the whole
fishing world wif her
fishyness. dun mind kies. its juz fer these few days...
i love fishing. but i dun wanna meet conrad lee..
fishing rocks.
lemmi fish the hell out of my
fishy feelings in this blog okies. its my only
fishing avenue of destressing. thankes my absolutely
non fishy frenx... =)
and the most
fishing thing about this is some of them fishingly cheated and we now have to go there again.
fish man...
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7:23 PM
Sunday, March 13, 2005
was so pissed yesterday night.
OWEN!!!! if you ever see this... haish... your scouts are horrendous. so niang can!!!!i was so pissed i shouted at them. they nv order bus, then my guides, 40 pple had to squeeze the bus wif them. nvm... duN really mind that, but they keep like changing their minds about taking the bus. grrr.... blehx...so fickleminded!!! but watever... and the worst thing is they were w/o a venture or teacher. so ifanything happens to them, i'm the most senior there and in charge of AHS gg, so anything gotta do wif AHS is my prob. poor me... under so much stress yesterday kies... =S
yesterday's campfire was not that bad after all. but i was super tired after a whole day of mugging. =S the dances were super nice and AHS gg n scouts got best supporting. =) yayness... good fer them.
today going to sing song... =)
have to go do math soon. i hate integration n vectors and tt freaking 10 yr series. the qns in there are damn good morale boosters! wth. i need more qns to lower my morale so i can start thinking that i need to put in more effort in studies... =)
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10:01 AM
Saturday, March 12, 2005
the below is going to be filled wif vulgarities, if you carn stand it juz
fish off ok.
fisssh the hell
fishing hell.
i'm goign to be the
fishing incharge of all the
fishing girls. it is one
fishing YAL to 20 girls. and some
fishing best friend juz carn make it. i dowan to wei nan her. but carn she spare a
fishing thot fer me? the
fishing burden, of taking care of all the girls. what if anything ever happens, 'm responsible fer it you noe? anyway, i chose to say "forget it' cuz i
freaking carn make you give up your
fishing future cuz of such a
fishing small matter. nvm... i'll juz go myself and take the responsibility. so
fish off and duN bother me and dun ever mention this to me again.
fish off.
i realised the
fishing fact that everyone is
fishing selfish.
im a big
fishing bitch and a big
fishing big mouth hu will
fishingly continue to utter nonsese if you
fishingly wanna tok about things i
fishingly duN like.
fish off. i love
fishing.
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11:39 AM
Friday, March 11, 2005
this is going to be a long entry i guess...
pe was horrendous.. we did the beep test. you run 20m back n forth within beeps, which will continually get faster fer each increasing level. a standard test fer atheletes. a norm college gal runs till level 8. i'm such a loser. i ran till level 6 only, then b4 i reach level 7, i see spax drop out so i dropped out too. blehx. not that i want to be on par or wat, juz duN wanna be the only one slogging out there hu is not a sports player. sometimes i feel so inferior. i think i can make it, but in actual fact, i carn. note the
think. feel that sometimes i bu zhi liang li. a series of events can juz illustrate my point. for eg, VJ. what was i thinking, no is
dreaming when i even ever put it as my choice during PAE. i was out of my mind. it was just all a dream come true for the first 3 months. seerves me right. argh...
howl's moving castle... was not as
nice as other pple claim it is. i dun understand the plot. perhaps that's why i duN really like the show bahs. the anime is nice. that's all. =) harry potter still rocks.
best fren
. the word to describe a person close to your heart, in terms of friendship. haish. i realised that in this world, there's no such things as forever. time spent together is really the factor determining the sustainability of frienship. perhaps we try to keep up wif each other but the harsh truth is that we have drifted apart. no matter how hard i try to tell myself that maybe its me that's the one hu keeps not putting myself in your shoes and thinking it in your point of view, it is no doubt that the culture we are surving in makes what we are in the long run. realised that we have different views on the same point when if it was a few years back, we wud have both been exclaiming about the same thing thats beautiful.
some may say that once you have your "better half", you'll start changing. well, i duN blame you or what. you made a commitment. whereas friendship has no element of commitment. so i dun blame you. i have learnt not to blame anything on that issue. its no one's fault. its juz the ways of love and the commitments that come wif it. you'll be living wif you better half in the future, not me. so i got nothing to say le. i juz wan u to bear in mind that you., all my frenz. attached or not attached, will always have me there fer you. i noe that i may not possess the capabilities to help you and solve your problems, but i think the emotional support is the most practical help that i can ever give to you when i carn help you physically.
read ac's blog...haish. dunNo what to say leix. really have not been there fer her. so sorry. our story, so short but yet so heart-warming to me. the marauders. they were not my first friends when i was in sec 1 n 2. i was wif another group. then, i was so afraid of being ostracised and so was overpossesive over another fren. the other gal didn;t like it. she called it snatching her fren away. so i was backstabbed and all. they were the bunch of frenz that i shunned away from from that moment onwards. and they were partially the reason whay i didnt get into coh. not that i wanna blame them or what, but those memories really taunted me and i have no wish to cooperate wif them. i'm a happy non-coh member. =) ac they all provided me wif the emotional support. they heard things about me, of cuz, but they still stood by me. that's all that counted. i really appreciate iit. sometimes its the little things that we overlook that makes the big picture perfect. i really wanna thank them fer being so good to me. if not fer them. i wud have been the outcast long long ago. i wun be in a jc even. maybe i have to change sch. thankew, really. u dunNo how much you all have done fer me. love you all marauders.
to all my frenx, i really thank you fer being there fer me. sure you heard things about me, but thanks fer overlooking them and being my fren. you are the bright stars in my life that light up my life and make my life significant and worth living. not to mention my family. hee~ =) love you all lots.
sometimes i think about y everyone in my life is getting hitched. looking at everyone happy wif their other half. whining bout their other half. well, dunNo la. i seem to shun those who try to get too close. haish. y? dunNo la. i shud out this thots at the back of my mind. a levels comes first now. haha
okies... guess that's all fer tonight. haish. have to go mug soon. my hols are so packed wif activity. manx... how to study? blehx...
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7:07 PM
Thursday, March 10, 2005
went fer tuition yesterday night. so pissening. shall not brood over it. at least i can duN go tuition fer the next week. yeah... anyway... today was a rather interesting day. did pract alone wif no one to refer to. 1st time in 2 yrs bahx... but nvm... i survived wif my notes and all. and i managed to finish everything within the time limit. that's an accomplishment kies. =)
later went fer 3 lectures straight. the HOD fer chem invited the most inspiring person back to sch. he scored A fer chem. from students council and has a darn big ego and talks real fast, the most beloved ibrahim. he toks too much and too fast and de zui a lot of pple, but he's a good speaker and a good motivator. so chem is all about hard work and consistency blah blah blah. and if you're feeling the tension now, as he said, this is just the beginning. there's more to come. extra lectures as revision on top of the added lectures and tutorials that the sch has imposed on us. it will be the same as the times when we were in J1. so nothing to be happy about being j2s and not having pw. we'll be as busy. everytime i see pple from other sch going home so early, i compare how shitty my life is. but i begin to wonder if all my hard work is going to really bring me the results. i dunNo fer the time being. but i'm willing to try.
the teachers were right about one thing they said. we are a cocky bunch. we noe that we have more interllectual capabilities compare to the 86 batch, but ultimately the 86 batch will be better than us cuz they are willing to slog while we are the ones hu are slacking. everyone tells me that jc is the toughest exam one can face in an entire lifetime. its the only exam that needs you to slog hard fer and you will be guarenteed wif good results. true? dunNo to what extent la...
then today spaxy played spades during recess. after we had lunch. keke~ then van play mahjong. lolx.... =) so fuN!!! =) then we attended the starch talk. didn't really wanna go but the whole class go mahx... so go lorx... haish... they nv ask us at all lorx... =S nvm... shall be contented wif what we have and not comment too much.
to steffie... take care of yourself leix... your symtoms are not exactly very... uhm... good. ya... rest more ok!!! *hugX*
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5:33 PM
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
i realised i've not been a good fren. i've not thot of things in their shoes, i take things fer granted, i speak w/o thinking and i am such a loser. when i'm down they are there fer me, wat am i doing when they need me? argh... i hate my stupidity, i'm too caught up in my own world. selfishness. i carn stand myself.
hope steffie darling is feeling better. get well soon...
nothing much to say about except the above la. so much to do fer block tests. blehz...
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2:39 PM
Monday, March 07, 2005
hmmm... ms lai is sOOO bad. =( she made fri a half day like watever la. that day i end at 1230. wat's the diff.but i think i shd be surprised that she eeven allows. keke! watever...
anyway... suNg zai is back today. he looks so tanned... keke~ 3 weeks f reservice lo... sun tann everyday lorx...
then mr lee told us ghost story today. moral of the story was to sleep asap when in tekong lo. haish... haha~
dunNo wat to blog lerx... got hw to do nehx.. then gotta study fer test also. sianz... duN feel like thudying thou... blehx...
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5:29 PM
Sunday, March 06, 2005
hee~ went out yesterday wif my dearie ham bekah n yt. =) so happy. but we were all very tired... and i mean very. first of all, we met at PS, then pei ham eat lunch at mOs and we started our shopping spree! keke~ foX woman has nice clothes and nice shorts( but its a little too puny). but its so darn eX. haish. nvm... shall save first. keke~ walk walk already toOk bus to cine thou we cud have walked but we were too tired, remember. haha~
bought tiX fer
a moment to remember, the korean love movie. then went to shop again. =) hee~and the movie was totally... touching!!!! it was so darn touching la. for those hu nv watch, muz bring enuf tissue okiies? everyone of the girls wwere crying. i really mean it. some pple cry till they like lost their own bF lidat lo... -__-''' it was really that bad. its only the last part that's like very sad, but the in front rather funNy lorx.. hee~ great movie thou... i'll watch it a second time if i can... =) another thing was two ah mahs went to watch it too... i really think they ah mah la, cuz they looked 60 and they had a head of white hair blah blah blah... u get what i mean la.. hha~and guess hu i met in the cinema! wenfeng la! keke~ so farnie... didn't noe it was her that's beside yt till like the end of the movie. haha~ its so dark mahx... but it was so FARNIE.. really...
then after that we went to esprit to shop again. keke~ shopping spree! =) there's a darn nice pants there, 70 bucks only after discount... really darn chio la... =S haha~ it looks eX that's y its worth the money. keke~ and we went to a lot of other places la, Zara and Mango ad Topshop. but didn't manage to find anything nice la, so there there. hee~
juz love going out to shop wif my dearies. hee~ we're going out again the next month. hope we can make it lo... dunNo when will be the next time we can go out together after say out june hols. so muz treasure our times together. =)
haha~ now have to go mug lerx... got so much hw undone... haha~
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7:40 AM
Friday, March 04, 2005
Watch out for any errors in orientation or strategic mistakes today, Jia Wei. You may be having some communication problems with almost everyone today. You feel like everything you say just falls on deaf ears, and that no one really wants to listen to you. Don't get frustrated! Relax and see it with humor! Just be an observer for one day, and see what happens!haha... felt that way today, but as soon as i left sch, everything was FUN. =)
in the morn, was not in a very good mood at first. then went fer GP. still not very happy. then later was PE. OMG. i hate sprinting. =( its so tiring. then i had to race against spaxY n i keep losing her. keke!~ that's not the point. but i'm aching all over now. mr eric says that its a good way of training fer the 2.4km run. subject yourself the extreme conditions and you will excel in your 2.4 km run. hope that really helps and i shall try to do it more often. thou my legs hurt, i like it that way. i feel worked out and that makes me feel good to be sweating. i shd invest in deoderant. =S haha~
then later was math. blehx. i barely passed. *bish myself* but i knew it coming along. was very careless. =S then joel pissed me off.ffreak la. wanted to sit under the fan, then he was like :kaox... you sit at the place where i put my bag. then i was like so BS. y carn you more gentleman? kaoz. anyway, i was pissed, even after he said it was joking. well, see how you like it if i slap your face and tell you that i'm juz joking.
mr yeow went thru the bio spa thingy. haha~ yesterday night's effort was i guess well put in. then was math lec. received a msg which made me pissed. haiz. ask us to go sch at 5 pm can? so ... urgh... dunNo la...
then later went back to AH wif ningxi. then went to do all the guides stuff lorx... look thru the proposal and all those then woosh... time really flies and its time to go home. went to ms tan's desk to explain the things to her ar... then ended up talking to her about some stuff. haha~ sso farnie. love talking to her. she really very easy to talk to lo. and she's so pretty. shio si le.
talked to ann chi today. so happy to see her. keke~ haish...
i noe some pple are pretty dissapointed in their marks and all that, but jia you ok... one failure doesn't equate you to a failure always.... =) brace up okies...
talked to a few teachers like mr adrian and ms chan. she stil thinks that yt and i look alike. haha~ =) i found out about some things which i shdn't noe. haish. shall forget it.
i have orienteering and a camp to attend this hols. wth. so much fer hoping to mug at home during the hols. blehx. but i muz try my best. maybe i can mug in sch wif yt. haa~
yayness about tml. =)
random thots fer today: friendship is built on trust. it always takes one to start telling the other secrets that builds up the trust between two pple. and that's when there is a increase in the depth of frienship. surprisingly, its the same when we start distrusting one another. someone starts not to say about some things and as time passes, all that's left of this friendship is juz a mere skeleton. i guess its still the same line: it takes two tO clap. how true...
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6:54 PM
Thursday, March 03, 2005
haha...today is a funny day. like got laffing gas everywhere i go. i'm laffing at the slightest things... lolx...
chung chi watches captain planet when he was younger too... and minex n him were singing the song during Gp. lolx... so farnie larx. then mr conrad lee wanted to bluff us abt sth, but apparently he needs to go for some speech n drama classes. haha~ nv really convinced us at all... keke~
i uploaded the baby pics of me. so cute lorx... keke~ at least i think so... also duN look like me worx... =)
hope everyday will be like today, so happy. i like being happy. =)
yayness... going to see yt tml. going to see ham n bekah n yt on sat.
watching howl's moving castle wif spaxY n minex next wed.. keke~
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4:36 PM
haha...today is a funny day. like got laffing gas everywhere i go. i'm laffing at the slightest things... lolx...
chung chi watches captain planet when he was younger too... and minex n him were singing the song during Gp. lolx... so farnie larx. then mr conrad lee wanted to bluff us abt sth, but apparently he needs to go for some speech n drama classes. haha~ nv really convinced us at all... keke~
i uploaded the baby pics of me. so cute lorx... keke~ at least i think so... also duN look like me worx... =)
hope everyday will be like today, so happy. i like being happy. =)
yayness... going to see yt tml. going to see ham n bekah n yt on sat.
watching howl's moving castle wif spaxY n minex next wed.. keke~
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4:36 PM
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
today is a short day. =)
happily at home. =)
was very tired cuz i had to wake up early to do bio essay qN. =)
my muji blue pen spoiled. =(
gP block test was horrible. so much for UTOPIA. there's nv going to be that day but then again you nv noe what the future holds, yeah? =)
van these few days like a bit mad mad lidat. but i like her lidat... =)
we sang those cartoon songs during chem today. kekek~ so farnie. sophie probably thinks we duN have a childhood. ooPx... yes... we sang from bananas in pyjamus to captain planet to pinky and the brain to spongebob sq pants...
hmmm... today i'm supposed to do lots of hw. blehx... watever... later bahx... wahahah~ kk..
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3:17 PM
Tuesday, March 01, 2005
i forgot to blog abt sth yesterday. hmmm.. ya... i dreamt of ws. i dreamt he and johnny are good friends and they ended up in MJ. i dreamt of daddy as their good friend too. oh man... that's so nsane. ws showed me his gf, the one he always tok abt.
haish. all the above makes no sense...all i noe is they only came to me as a dream. maybe cuz i vv long time nv see ws le ba. miss him lots... =S nvm... so long le...
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6:22 PM
my limbs are aching. my shoulder blades are hurting. ouch. aftermath of all the coolie work yesterday. =( i feel so fragile. =X
i'm tired for no apparent reason. carboxylic seems so foreign to me even thou i juz finish the tutorials last week. blehx. i'm lousy at organic chem. i'm worse at physical chem. carn imagine my grades.
next week we're having our pw grades i guess. that's so saddening. =( i dowan it back. haiz. nvm.. gtg now... prepare to go sch. wahahha~
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7:11 AM