Friday, March 11, 2005
this is going to be a long entry i guess...
pe was horrendous.. we did the beep test. you run 20m back n forth within beeps, which will continually get faster fer each increasing level. a standard test fer atheletes. a norm college gal runs till level 8. i'm such a loser. i ran till level 6 only, then b4 i reach level 7, i see spax drop out so i dropped out too. blehx. not that i want to be on par or wat, juz duN wanna be the only one slogging out there hu is not a sports player. sometimes i feel so inferior. i think i can make it, but in actual fact, i carn. note the
think. feel that sometimes i bu zhi liang li. a series of events can juz illustrate my point. for eg, VJ. what was i thinking, no is
dreaming when i even ever put it as my choice during PAE. i was out of my mind. it was just all a dream come true for the first 3 months. seerves me right. argh...
howl's moving castle... was not as
nice as other pple claim it is. i dun understand the plot. perhaps that's why i duN really like the show bahs. the anime is nice. that's all. =) harry potter still rocks.
best fren
. the word to describe a person close to your heart, in terms of friendship. haish. i realised that in this world, there's no such things as forever. time spent together is really the factor determining the sustainability of frienship. perhaps we try to keep up wif each other but the harsh truth is that we have drifted apart. no matter how hard i try to tell myself that maybe its me that's the one hu keeps not putting myself in your shoes and thinking it in your point of view, it is no doubt that the culture we are surving in makes what we are in the long run. realised that we have different views on the same point when if it was a few years back, we wud have both been exclaiming about the same thing thats beautiful.
some may say that once you have your "better half", you'll start changing. well, i duN blame you or what. you made a commitment. whereas friendship has no element of commitment. so i dun blame you. i have learnt not to blame anything on that issue. its no one's fault. its juz the ways of love and the commitments that come wif it. you'll be living wif you better half in the future, not me. so i got nothing to say le. i juz wan u to bear in mind that you., all my frenz. attached or not attached, will always have me there fer you. i noe that i may not possess the capabilities to help you and solve your problems, but i think the emotional support is the most practical help that i can ever give to you when i carn help you physically.
read ac's blog...haish. dunNo what to say leix. really have not been there fer her. so sorry. our story, so short but yet so heart-warming to me. the marauders. they were not my first friends when i was in sec 1 n 2. i was wif another group. then, i was so afraid of being ostracised and so was overpossesive over another fren. the other gal didn;t like it. she called it snatching her fren away. so i was backstabbed and all. they were the bunch of frenz that i shunned away from from that moment onwards. and they were partially the reason whay i didnt get into coh. not that i wanna blame them or what, but those memories really taunted me and i have no wish to cooperate wif them. i'm a happy non-coh member. =) ac they all provided me wif the emotional support. they heard things about me, of cuz, but they still stood by me. that's all that counted. i really appreciate iit. sometimes its the little things that we overlook that makes the big picture perfect. i really wanna thank them fer being so good to me. if not fer them. i wud have been the outcast long long ago. i wun be in a jc even. maybe i have to change sch. thankew, really. u dunNo how much you all have done fer me. love you all marauders.
to all my frenx, i really thank you fer being there fer me. sure you heard things about me, but thanks fer overlooking them and being my fren. you are the bright stars in my life that light up my life and make my life significant and worth living. not to mention my family. hee~ =) love you all lots.
sometimes i think about y everyone in my life is getting hitched. looking at everyone happy wif their other half. whining bout their other half. well, dunNo la. i seem to shun those who try to get too close. haish. y? dunNo la. i shud out this thots at the back of my mind. a levels comes first now. haha
okies... guess that's all fer tonight. haish. have to go mug soon. my hols are so packed wif activity. manx... how to study? blehx...
its like wateverr**.
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