Saturday, February 19, 2005
sigh. there are so many emotions goign on in me. i noe this may seem a little crazee... but i really feel that this just isn't my year.
first of all, my relatives are not getting the good health they shd get. its those pple hu are not irritating me that are leaving me. the irritating pple are all around me. it makes me get pissed at them if they ever noe it. sometimes i juz dowan to say only. i'm really sick of putting up wif them. they are so INSENSITIVE. maybe i'm the one hu's super sensitive. but things start to get irritating if you keep doing it and saying it. understand? its not juz one bloody time la. its like everytime i see that hag i have to hear it like 3 times at least. freaking hell. carn you jux shutup!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! one more time and i will have thots of sealing your big mouth with a mean sentence. such a big BIaTCH. and to some pple hu are so f***ingly complaining that i have bad attitude or wateverso, the only reason y pple have mood swings is cuz of hormonal changes. duN you f***ingly think that you duN use the same excuse lo. cuz you do. sometimes what pple nv say doesn't mean you duN have it lo. at least pple say sorry when they realise that they have been mean. at least they noe.and its not easy to say sorrry lo. you think its juz opening your freakign mouth? its only those who think they have hurt other pple lo. and this shows that at least they have a tinge of good ness in them. no ones perfect. so stop picking on me. some pple have trouble controling their emotions. it'll be good if each of us can forgive and forget instead of pin pointing who's using that condition as an excuse. watever...
[sorry if this is so crude. but i'm fuming now. pls allow me to blog down my emotions now, cuz if not... i'll so burst soon... if you dunN like it, DUN read. fish off then...]
and my cousin. my paternal side. juz received news that my aunt's in the hosp. there's water in her lungs. and she's in the ICU. i'm so sad. really. when i heard it i felt like going to see her. i feel so bad fer goign to my maternal side' s family gathering. i feel rotten. and when i reached home last night, i heard from my another cousin that with her present condition at that time, it was difficult fer her to survive till the next day. i was so devastated. my cousins are still rather young, what will happen to them w/o a mother. and they are super nice pple. i have to most fun times wif them. moreover, their mum, which is the aunt who's in hosp was to one hu intro my mum to my dad. or sth like that la, if not fer her, there wun be me. so i felt so worried. i guess that's human nature. at that moment, i prayed to all gods to keep her alive. i wun want her to leave. she's too kind. not her. someone else, just not her. sigh... then this morn when i woke up, heard news that her condition has been a little more stabalised. =) that's a bright spot. was so afraid to listen to the fone. at least last night, no fone calls are better than one wif bad news. sigh. dearly wish that her condition will be better. really. i pray to all gods to continue keeping her alive and eventually get well. that's all i ask fer. that's really all. thank you. i dowan anyone to leave me anymore.
its like wateverr**.
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